who answers these?

[eggssaltedhighafnohomounejamgjarpri]

who do I reach out to in times of need? I have no one and no body.

 

[AFODO]

You have all of us here and the Gods. If you elaborate on your problem and situation we might be able to help.

 

[AFODO]

why am i still suffering? why does God allow this? do i have to end my own life just to satisfy his own will?

Read the meditations book from Marcus Aurelius, and you'll understand everything.
In short, no, the Gods do not want you to kill yourself, they want you to overcome whatever faith have assigned to you, they are there to help, if you ask for help and do something to overcome this.