What's wrong with me

[Kamron Walton]

I have been meditating on clairaudience for two weeks now but I hear no Demons. It's as if they are not reaching out to me but that would mean I have been rejected by Father and the Powers of Hell. I'm beginning to doubt myself and I'm fighting depression and anxiety as I type this. I also think I must have been a failure in my past life. What's going on?

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Nothing wrong with you. Don't be so hard and down on yourself. It's great that you are working on your psychic centers to hear the Demons. Keep at it. It doesn't happen overnight. Everyone comes to Spiritual Satanism at different levels of openness and psychic abilities. Don't give up!





  I have been meditating on clairaudience for two weeks now but I hear no Demons. It's as if they are not reaching out to me but that would mean I have been rejected by Father and the Powers of Hell. I'm beginning to doubt myself and I'm fighting depression and anxiety as I type this. I also think I must have been a failure in my past life. What's going on?

 

[donotfearthetruth666]

You need to work on them everyday, see what happens after a year.
It's been almost 5 months for me, but since I worked hard in my past lives, it is a bit easier for me.
Demons won't contact you immediately after a day of you starting to work on yourself, they will come when the time is right.
Ease up, no one's abandoning you, you abandon your own self when you stop working on yourself.

 

[Shael1]

@kamron
Everyone is individual, but I can tell you that I have been working on my astral senses daily since half a year and I still didn't notice any significant changes. You just need to be patient and let the results come over time. 

-Shael

 

[Kamron Walton]

Why do I get the feeling that I'm not supposed to have hope? Because I don't have my prayers answered, I tried about an hour ago and the flame of the candle went out again as if it was hope itself vanishing away from me. I do what I can to fight the enemy and I do what I can to empower myself, NO ONE ANSWERS! Not Satan, not friends, not family! It's as if black magick has cursed me to drown in despair. All I ever get is dream crushing heartbreak, WHY

 

[livingforsatan]

@ Kamron. This sounds so familiar.

Perhaps black magic HAS cursed you to drown in dream crushing despair. It's possible.

Perhaps you have been programmed to be self-defeating. It happens to many.

Maybe you gave been tricked into being your own worst enemy for so long, it feels as if you REALLY ARE your own worst enemy.

Well, you have been lied to, by pervasive, consumnate liars, who live for and love telling nothing but lies.

Give yourself a break.

Start being kind to yourself.

Do not ascribe your qualities to those who would lie to you. They have a different kind of heart than you do.

First, cut them off, both on the astral (with an aura of protection - multiple times a day - and searing blue flame if you need to) and in the physical (deny them your time, attention and care). Ignore them, on purpose. Quit listening to them. Fight them, if you must.

Show them you're willing to do what you must to shake them off and they will show you how weak they are.

And, tell yourself the Truth. You ARE quite capable of overcoming the curse. Program this into your aura daily. Begin a regimen of supportive mantras (and self-talk).

Give yourself a break. You're always giving breaks to others.

Dammit. Be nice to yourself, too.

Apply all of the advice others have told you here. Begin as fundamentally as you must and be patient with yourself.

Hail Satan, in deed and in Truth, always!

 

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@kamron. Ref give yourself a break!
As no state says, please give yourself a break. You've been programmed to believe the worst about yourself. 
Think about it... Satan is Love. Satan is Perfection. Satan is Truth. Satan is your Father! So... You are not worthless. You are not a f#ck up! Do a working to fix your perception of yourself.
That's been my problem also. Ms Lydia posted a remedy for programmed put-downs, and it's been a real gift! I've been doing this same working and it's helped. Change it for your liking and needs. And please read the attached forum first. Do it for at least 40 days or 90 days to make it permanent. ANSUZ x 108.  MUNKA x 108.Affirmations x 18:"In a happy healthy and beneficial manner for me I am being rid of unworthiness [worthlessness]." Then for the second half of the working that Ms Lydia described: "I am worthy of happiness, good health, prosperity success love and everything positive due me as an elite child of Satan."

Remember, do not start anything during a void of course moon. http://www.lunarium.co.ukEdit the location for your location. Then save preferences. Then click on astrological moon calendar. What I do is take a screen shot of 2 months and save it. This way I don't have to keep pulling it up from the website all the time.  After you're done go back to the edit your location and put in anything else. Save preferences. This is for your own safety. 
Another thing you can do is the meditations to open your chakras and soul:http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html

Don't give up! You're a warrior! Fight for your rights as an Elite Child of Satan!! HP HC just published the Ritual for the solstice. Read and understand what he says. And do the Ritual.
Hail SatanHail Lilith
Dehna

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[[email protected]]

My Brother,  there is nothing wrong with you,  your perception clouds you, you are troubled by much it seems.  I once was like you, believing all was set against me it was this mindset that plagued me for what seemed like an eternity,  You are your own worst enemy.  I can sense it in how you speak of yourself.  You must challenge and defeat that which is holding you back, be it fear, regret, or simply self doubt.  You must remove from your mind everything that no longer serves you or your purpose.  Only then will you be free of that which clouds you,Believe in your self, and Believe in Satan. I felt compelled to answer your question because I too, once, asked the same question.  The most difficult opponent to face is your self. You ask the question of one who is uncertain, uncertainty leads to doubt, doubt leads to fear, Fear leads to anger, until you have convinced yourself that you are abbandoned and helpless, perception is not always truth.  Comrade, you are not abbandoned,  you must simply find your way back unto the righteous path, I cannot tell you what to do, it is not for me to tell you your path, but I can tell you this, until you Believe and when I say believe I mean BELIEVE believe in your self as you never have before you have the strength to weather this storm for this is not a storm but a drizzle and that is only if you are afraid of a little rain,  look inside yourself, find the power that is yours and yours alone, and you will find the light.  I do not know your power nor progress but speak unto Satan a simple method to do so is Draw his sigil unto paper trace over it as many times as you need to make it clearer, and spill your heart to he who can set you free or shall I say show you how to set your self freeMay the Light Of the Morning Star guide you my friend. For you are not alone, do not despair.
Sincerely,~Diablo Satanas
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!!!!


Perhaps black magic HAS cursed you to drown in dream crushing despair. It's possible.

Perhaps you have been programmed to be self-defeating. It happens to many.

Maybe you gave been tricked into being your own worst enemy for so long, it feels as if you REALLY ARE your own worst enemy.

Well, you have been lied to, by pervasive, consumnate liars, who live for and love telling nothing but lies.

Give yourself a break.

Start being kind to yourself.

Do not ascribe your qualities to those who would lie to you. They have a different kind of heart than you do.

First, cut them off, both on the astral (with an aura of protection - multiple times a day - and searing blue flame if you need to) and in the physical (deny them your time, attention and care). Ignore them, on purpose. Quit listening to them. Fight them, if you must.

Show them you're willing to do what you must to shake them off and they will show you how weak they are.

And, tell yourself the Truth. You ARE quite capable of overcoming the curse. Program this into your aura daily. Begin a regimen of supportive mantras (and self-talk).

Give yourself a break. You're always giving breaks to others.

Dammit. Be nice to yourself, too.

Apply all of the advice others have told you here. Begin as fundamentally as you must and be patient with yourself.

Hail Satan, in deed and in Truth, always! [/QUOTE] [/QUOTE]

 

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Last night It happens.I did Focus my last meditation on the day, sixth time on the last seven days on father Satan, his sigil, his name. I called, and he aswered.
How i know it was him?
He aswered my questions before i even think on It, we talked deeply about things i have never could talk with any other being.
He was respectful, but brief. Direct, but kind. In half the short time se shared togheter we exchange images because it was faster.
Somerthing changed, i will try to define for you.
Last weeks trying to hear Satan trought meditation some enemies show up and put my hopes on the ground, i was realy bad, trying to empower my aura while under their terrible actions.
I was feeling a fail (i saw myself on your words), even banishing wasan't enought, i needed to detach from three gates the being and rebuild my aura, last night as soon i finished i meditate on father Satan, asking for his help, even knowing i ended the crisis i still feeling like garbage.
 Father could reach me, i sense his presence, knew exactly how i was and he just Said, i know your pain, you wasan't alone in the top of the hill, still you need to keep fighting over the heavy dense feeling what are trying to drown you.
He confirmed the enemy is around me, but he enfatized i need to proceed opening the gates (the way is meditation).
His words was for me the breath of life before i get back to that big cold ocean, i can keep swimming that way.
I hope you get better, just keep trying, change the way, did you tried the 40day meditation program?
Hail Father Satan

 

[livingforsatan]

@ Daniel Very interesting. Are you dedicated to Satan?

I found this on the topic:

http://www.ascensionhelp.com/blog/2012/ ... m-archons/

 

[zolaluckystar1]

Kamron, what livingforsatan told you and others here is truth. 
However, I disagree with the post regarding you have an Archon spirit in you. To go to a hypnotherapist. NO. HPS Pythia has stated in a Sermon to never, EVER let anyone Hypnotize you. There is good reason for this. While I cannot recall all she said; the gist is that a hypnotherapist can implant anything they want into you. It is not wise as an Zevism to EVER allow anyone to have this kind of an opportunity to exert power over you. There was more she had to say on the subject of hypnosis but alas, I can't recall off the top of my head: the only thing I recall clearly is that going to be hypnotized is a very BAD idea. Don't do it!
If anyone here has a link to that Sermon would you please post it here, I haven't time to find it.

 

[makesyouperfect]

archon spirits? they enter through your eyes, and control your mind and then your body?
yea right, if  such powerful beings existed they would have taken over my parents and killed me as an infant
same with all of us here, or perhaps they would just go for Satan and be done with it...
you cant listen to every loon on the internet, sometimes people take their day dreams too far
they cause ALL negative emotions????? suck my balls
"despair, anguish, fear, anxiety, lazyness, psychological problems, psychiatric illnesses, aggressiveness, physical problems and sickness, poverty, accidents, even using your own demons to make us old, death, etc. The best way forward is to get hold of an hypnotherapist to help you. "

"get a hypnotherapist, I love you goy!!!!"
archon spirits cause old age and death...... oh ohohohohohohohohhoohoh   boy......
 

 

[Daniel Botha]

Yes I am, he's my best friend and he's my Lord. God of the earth and Prince of the air.

  @ Daniel Very interesting. Are you dedicated to Satan?

I found this on the topic:

http://www.ascensionhelp.com/ blog/2012/01/31/never-call- them-archons/

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[Allison Passino]

@Dena: Satan bless you Sister! I was looking for answers regarding
removing low self-esteem, and I did not know about Lydia's post. I
have been plagued with such my whole life, sadly, but I know I will
eventually eradicate this in me, as I know it is NOT healthy! The
causes of this are manifold; unfortunately, my mom and dad have
contributed, though never on purpose! It's just...they inculcated in
my soul/psyche certain attitudes by just little things they would say.
Especially my dad. Satan bless him, I love him, I do. He's just...not
a very easy man to cohabitate with, as I currently am forced to do at
present. When it comes right down to it, for whatever fucking reason,
my father is not a very positive person. He just isn't. *sigh* I
swear...were it not for Satan/Enki, my divine Father, I don't know
what I would've done by now. Satan knows that I deserve better, and I
will get it, eventually. Because I am HIS daughter!

On 6/21/17, Daniel Botha [ email redacted ] [JoyofSatan666]
wrote:

Yes I am, he's my best friend and he's my Lord. God of the earth and Prince

of the air.


On 21 Jun 2017 03:16, "[ email redacted ] [JoyofSatan666]" <
wrote:




@ Daniel Very interesting. Are you dedicated to Satan?

I found this on the topic:

http://www.ascensionhelp.com/blog/2012/ ... m-archons/

 

[sahasrara bliss]

You are not astrally open yet to hear and see the Gods? Open your astral senses first. AndThe way you are feeling now is because you are living in the past and the future. The way I see it is that because you have expectations to see the Gods the next very moment while you may not astrally open. They may have given you a sign but you weren't aware to notice it. Signs like on tv,music, etc. 
You feel you are not supposed to have a hope? Well. You are living in the past then because the old mind programming which is that voice in your head that constantly repeats that you are not worthy etc etc. So you are giving up easily and not seeing the Gods is being used as an excuse and proof to prove that voice in your head whatever it says about you. Do not believe it because it's false. 
It's a high possibility that the Gods and Satan really gave you signs but you weren't just aware to notice it I guess. 

The key is awareness. How do you achieve that? By living in the moment. In the present, now and here. Because the present is all what you have. Embrace it. It will help you in void meditation too to a very large extent. Thinking of past will only make you feel down because we are programmed to think negative memories most of the times and thinking of the future will only make you anxious and worry. Live your present and meditate in that moment. Do not rush things. Raise your awareness.