Suicide is also not advised for other reasons. First, your soul at this point is not ethernal. If it doesn't have enough energy to survive in the astral until next incarnation, it will dissipate after a while. You would be no more. Same if you have not enough energies for another incarnation. Satan does what it can to help its dedicated people after death, but this requires a lot of energies.
Additionally, suicide terribly wounds every part of your soul. It doesn't just kill your meat suit. You have no idea what damage you can do by doing that.
I'm glad you're feeling better.
