Rant

[Anike Anike]

<td val[/IMG]Yeah... It seems as if a depression syndrome is going around...guess it's my turn! This is just gonna be a rant so feel free to ignore! I just feel like anything I do it's not good enough for our Gods...(something like Raven posted) It's just a personal feeling. I write a song, it's not good enough for me, I write a poem, still not good enough, I do destruction rituals, still not good enough and so on. So much of us are doing something to help...DP is well on a roll, our more advanced members answer the most difficult questions giving the most amazing answers and well, even though I try to help all it still feels not good enough...yeah, thanks for reading.
Hail Satan![/TD]

 

[Raven Lythrum]

I think I know what you mean but let me be sure. Are you saying it's kind of like you feel like you want to give them so much but you've run out of ideas? Or is it JUST feeling like nothing is good enough?   |
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Knowledge is power.
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Hail Belial!* * Ave Zeus!* Ave Satanas!* Rege Satanas!* Hail Satan!*
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From: Anike Anike <anikeanime@...
To: Jos
Sent: Tuesday, December 11, 2012 10:36 AM
Subject: Rant

 

<td val[/IMG]Yeah... It seems as if a depression syndrome is going around...guess it's my turn! This is just gonna be a rant so feel free to ignore! I just feel like anything I do it's not good enough for our Gods...(something like Raven posted) It's just a personal feeling. I write a song, it's not good enough for me, I write a poem, still not good enough, I do destruction rituals, still not good enough and so on. So much of us are doing something to help...DP is well on a roll, our more advanced members answer the most difficult questions giving the most amazing answers and well, even though I try to help all it still feels not good enough...yeah, thanks for reading.
Hail Satan![/TD]

 

[Anike Anike]

<td val[/IMG]It's your first suggestion, I want to do so much for Father and make him and the Gods proud but I simply don't know what else to do...I had so much ideas and now not only do I try to do so much to help and praise and it still doesn't feel good enough and I don't know what do....I want to make them proud and do something more for them...
Hail Satan![/TD]

From: Raven Lythrum <lilylavycrowley@...;
To: ;
Subject: Re: Rant
Sent: Tue, Dec 11, 2012 6:59:54 PM

<td val[/IMG]   I think I know what you mean but let me be sure. Are you saying it's kind of like you feel like you want to give them so much but you've run out of ideas? Or is it JUST feeling like nothing is good enough?   |
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Knowledge is power.
"I am ever present to help all who trust in me and call upon me in time of need."~Father Satan; The Al-jilwah
In Nomine Dei Nostri Satanas Luciferi Excelsi!* Let the name of Satan be exaulted!*
Hail Belial!* * Ave Zeus!* Ave Satanas!* Rege Satanas!* Hail Satan!*
www.templeofzeus.org www.https://templeofzeus.org/LiturgicalTerms.php From: Anike Anike <anikeanime@...
To: Jos
Sent: Tuesday, December 11, 2012 10:36 AM
Subject: Rant

 

<td val[/IMG]Yeah... It seems as if a depression syndrome is going around...guess it's my turn! This is just gonna be a rant so feel free to ignore! I just feel like anything I do it's not good enough for our Gods...(something like Raven posted) It's just a personal feeling. I write a song, it's not good enough for me, I write a poem, still not good enough, I do destruction rituals, still not good enough and so on. So much of us are doing something to help...DP is well on a roll, our more advanced members answer the most difficult questions giving the most amazing answers and well, even though I try to help all it still feels not good enough...yeah, thanks for reading.
Hail Satan![/TD]

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[lolobardonik]

I've felt that too, don't feel alone.

There are sometimes that i'm trying my best and i fail constantly. Sometimes it's getting me down, but i try to be strong.

Sometimes i get so frustrated that powerful emotions come to the surface. I'm always trying to put them to good use, but it's not at all easy.

I've had some periods like this in my life, but when i reach the low point I'm always coming back with fury and zeal to be better than before.

I feel that life has it's cycles and if you look into the stars you may find the reasons/causes for what you are feeling. Maybe there are some difficult transits in your chart.

When I'm in a low point, i tend to isolate and do things that make me happy, make me forget. Be with people that make me feel better about myself, just by being with them.

I hope you can find your self soon and feel better. I know that Father Satan and the Demons will be there to help you, as they always helped me.

Hail Father Satan
Hail Astaroth
Hail Lerajie

--- In , Anike Anike <anikeanime@... wrote:

It's your first suggestion, I want to do so much for Father and make him and the Gods proud but I simply don't know what else to do...I had so much ideas and now not only do I try to do so much to help and praise and it still doesn't feel good enough and I don't know what do....I want to make them proud and do something more for them...
Hail Satan!

 

[Anike Anike]

<td val[/IMG]Thanks lolobardonik, this definitely made me feel better and think that there is not only me having these episodes...but I know after them we come back stronger. Thanks for the heads up
Hail Satan![/TD]

From: lolobardonik <lolobardonik@...;
To: ;
Subject: Re: Rant
Sent: Tue, Dec 11, 2012 8:08:20 PM

<td val[/IMG]   I've felt that too, don't feel alone.

There are sometimes that i'm trying my best and i fail constantly. Sometimes it's getting me down, but i try to be strong.

Sometimes i get so frustrated that powerful emotions come to the surface. I'm always trying to put them to good use, but it's not at all easy.

I've had some periods like this in my life, but when i reach the low point I'm always coming back with fury and zeal to be better than before.

I feel that life has it's cycles and if you look into the stars you may find the reasons/causes for what you are feeling. Maybe there are some difficult transits in your chart.

When I'm in a low point, i tend to isolate and do things that make me happy, make me forget. Be with people that make me feel better about myself, just by being with them.

I hope you can find your self soon and feel better. I know that Father Satan and the Demons will be there to help you, as they always helped me.

Hail Father Satan
Hail Astaroth
Hail Lerajie

--- [/IMG], Anike Anike <anikeanime@... wrote:

It&#39;s your first suggestion, I want to do so much for Father and make him and the Gods proud but I simply don&#39;t know what else to do...I had so much ideas and now not only do I try to do so much to help and praise and it still doesn&#39;t feel good enough and I don&#39;t know what do....I want to make them proud and do something more for them...
Hail Satan!

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[Austin Robb]

I know the feeling I just cleaned my aura and it seems to get threw the day

Ich liebe meinen Vater Satan! <3

On Dec 11, 2012, at 10:36 AM, "Anike Anike" <[ email redacted ] wrote:

 

<td val[/IMG]Yeah... It seems as if a depression syndrome is going around...guess it's my turn! This is just gonna be a rant so feel free to ignore! I just feel like anything I do it's not good enough for our Gods...(something like Raven posted) It's just a personal feeling. I write a song, it's not good enough for me, I write a poem, still not good enough, I do destruction rituals, still not good enough and so on. So much of us are doing something to help...DP is well on a roll, our more advanced members answer the most difficult questions giving the most amazing answers and well, even though I try to help all it still feels not good enough...yeah, thanks for reading.
Hail Satan![/TD]

 

[centralforce6661]

A lot of this type of thing is subconscious programming. I have had to go a long way to get past similar feelings and it comes down to the ingrained need to receive other's approval for our actions.

Perhaps you feel as though someone else might not think what you do is enough, therefore it is not enough. Or, you've been told repeatedly as the bible states often that you are worth nothing and nothing you do could ever match up to 'god'.

When you realise that this is at the basis of such depression, it helps to move past it. It won't immediately alleviate the feeling but in the long run this type of subconscious searching clears those things from the soul.