Questions, please help

[braedynrutherford]

Okay so i have some problems with family that causes me to not be able to do much, like rituals, some meditations, go into trances etc. so im wondering if i should try to make an astral temple (if that would help my situation) im 12 BTW and im starting to wonder if i should only do the protection and sight/hearing meditations each morning and night until i either become 18. i would really appreciate any feedback, i know this is what i am meant to do (Spiritual Satanism) so im not losing faith but i cant feel much from Father, when i ask for a sign or something to see if him or a demon is watching me or something but i never get answered, is it because of my age or am i not open enough or am i just never at the right time or is it a bad thing to ask for?
pretty much the only thing that lets me know that this is the truth is that before i dedicated i felt a kind of link, where every day and every second i was thinking about Zevism and Father and felt so much happier and my life got so much better, its hard to explain, and when i dedicated i felt a huge drop and felt free. so i would never lose faith i just cant do much and feel alone. so like i said before i really would appreciate any feedback. thanks for reading =) sorry for being so long.
Stay Strong

Hail SATAN!!!

 

[Botan shijo]

yep make a temple i do everything in mine and its a beautiful work of art

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From: braedynrutherford <[ email redacted ]
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Date: Thursday, May 6, 2010 7:30:39 AM GMT-0000
Subject: Questions, please help

Okay so i have some problems with family that causes me to not be able to do much, like rituals, some meditations, go into trances etc. so im wondering if i should try to make an astral temple (if that would help my situation) im 12 BTW and im starting to wonder if i should only do the protection and sight/hearing meditations each morning and night until i either become 18 i would really appreciate any feedback, i know this is what i am meant to do (Spiritual Satanism) so im not losing faith but i cant feel much from Father, when i ask for a sign or something to see if him or a demon is watching me or something but i never get answered, is it because of my age or am i not open enough or am i just never at the right time or is it a bad thing to ask for?
pretty much the only thing that lets me know that this is the truth is that before i dedicated i felt a kind of link, where every day and every second i was thinking about Zevism and Father and felt so much happier and my life got so much better, its hard to explain, and when i dedicated i felt a huge drop and felt free. so i would never lose faith i just cant do much and feel alone. so like i said before i really would appreciate any feedback. thanks for reading =) sorry for being so long.
Stay Strong

Hail SATAN!!!

 

[braedynrutherford]

thanks for replying, is it as simple as it says on JoS? like just go in a trance and visualize everything? and is it hard the first time going into a trance? i might have trouble with family like i said in the original post going into a trance and being undisturbed, but if it is as simple as visualising it i may be able to do it if i really try to find time maybe at night.
Stay Strong
Hail SATAN!

--- In , "Botan shijo" <botan.shijo@... wrote:

yep make a temple i do everything in mine and its a beautiful work of art

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Sent from AT&T's Wireless network using Mobile Email

------Original Message------
From: braedynrutherford <braedos@...
To:
Date: Thursday, May 6, 2010 7:30:39 AM GMT-0000
Subject: Questions, please help

Okay so i have some problems with family that causes me to not be able to do much, like rituals, some meditations, go into trances etc. so im wondering if i should try to make an astral temple (if that would help my situation) im 12 BTW and im starting to wonder if i should only do the protection and sight/hearing meditations each morning and night until i either become 18 i would really appreciate any feedback, i know this is what i am meant to do (Spiritual Satanism) so im not losing faith but i cant feel much from Father, when i ask for a sign or something to see if him or a demon is watching me or something but i never get answered, is it because of my age or am i not open enough or am i just never at the right time or is it a bad thing to ask for?
pretty much the only thing that lets me know that this is the truth is that before i dedicated i felt a kind of link, where every day and every second i was thinking about Zevism and Father and felt so much happier and my life got so much better, its hard to explain, and when i dedicated i felt a huge drop and felt free. so i would never lose faith i just cant do much and feel alone. so like i said before i really would appreciate any feedback. thanks for reading =) sorry for being so long.
Stay Strong

Hail SATAN!!!