Newly desicated and frustrated.

[doubleboltdevil666]

Good evening brothers and sisters.
Im newly dedicated to our Father Satan.
I did my dedication ritual on monday and have been studying and reading our ministry's pages in detail for about a week now and im starting the first month's beginners meditation to hell's army. Ive been doing the climbing down the ladder and letting go to fall, meditation since Monday, while thoroughly still reading and studying. It's an increadibly powerful procedure reading all the pages and with the amount of reading it will take quite some time to properly complete. In the meantime I have decided to start meditating while completing my studys. Now the problem is and today was day 3. I have never in my life had a day where I was so irritated by every sound, everything I look at annoyed the living daylights out of me. My mind is overly, excessively busy and so are my emotions. Its increadibly overwhelming. I keep getting the thought that I'm over doing things and puting alot of pressure on myself as I spend most of my day on the site. I feel it's necessary because I so deeply want to please Father Satan and to do what is our duty as dedicated satanists. I wasn't able to meditate today due to my restlessness and the more I try to ignore the thoughts the more I feel irritated by not being able to calm my mind. I really need help and guidance please. I deeply thank you.
HAIL SATAN!

 

[e8f6594e6300de967d1861f5d8e78f27]

Brother/sister i think i can help you If the thoughts that you are having are frustrating you and annoying you in some way, then my advice is to just sit in a meditative position and do some breathing exercises to help clear your mind. If thoughts come to your mind ever which bother you alot then think about a person or something you like to think about which will not bother/frustrate you. Such as a positive thought like focusing on father Satan, if other thoughts invade then just ask yourself in your mind "What colour hair does he have?" Answer "blonde" "Colour eyes?" you answer "Blue" What i am trying to say is if you want to focus on another thought or subject just FOCUS on it. Keep thinking about it until only get a couple of thoughts come into your head. It helps the thoughts or feelings from being overwhelming as your focusing on one thing You can ignore the above if you wish, it just a way of focusing on something just an example lol My MAIN ADVICE is that you do void meditation which is the soul purpose focusing on the here and now, which helps to clear the mind. And when done reguarly will help you and your magickal workings. HERES THE LINK TO THE SATANIC VOID MEDITATION PAGE Satanic Void Meditation  And you are not putting pressure on yourself! Ignore this feeling! If you feel as if you are doing too much and building up too much energy inside of yourself then stop! Nothing should be overwhelming for you! Do as much as you can And do not do any advanced meditations until your body, mind and soul is ready. Start with the beginning meditations on the power meditation page first, then as you grow work your way to the intermediate and advanced ones I hope this helps. If you ever feel like something is stopping you from doing power meditation just force your self to sit down on the floor comfortably,  do breathing exercises, then clean your aura, then do your aura of protection, then your void meditation and other important meditations such as opening the chakras With opening the chakras start with the third eye and go on. I hope this helps you. Father Satan bless you He loves you always remember that. If something troubles you then call out to him and be patient, he will answer you.  

 

[magnum.arcanum]

You said you just dedicated.  I'm assuming you're relatively new.  I know that Satanic Void Meditation will definitely help you and you should be fully familiar with the potential benefits as soon as possible i.e. you should read up on and know verbatim exactly what the benefits are.  What I've found productive is to simply focus on doing each meditation correctly, until I really get it.  It usually takes me a half an hour before I can really draw in energy doing the Aura of Protection meditation for example.  But, when I get it, I can really feel the energy entering my body, my energy level goes way up and I start sweating.  Sometimes taking shorter steps in reaching a goal can get you to the goal faster - rather than trying to take too big of steps and planting your face on the stairs repeatedly.  Their shouldn't be anything frustrating about mediation.  Maybe before you build a decent aura of protection and you still have low level dipshits messing with you.  That's the only time that I think it may be frustrating.

 

[doubleboltdevil666]

I feel tears in my heart of gratitude for your replies.
I can not thank you enough. Each day on my Satanic journey I realise and feel more free. More souls satisfied and still.
THIS is what I have been searching for, since I became aware of whats been going on in the world many years ago.
May Satan bless you aswell my brother/sister .
I am grateful beyond humans ability to describe verbally.
Hail Satan!