Is this community a safe place for me?

[Memorie_BE]

Hello, my name is Melodie. And I have 2 questions, both relating to the title of this post.

My first question is: Is this community a safe place for me as a skeptic?
Basically, I have been question what I have been told my entire life and love exploring ideas that most people find ridiculous and/or impossible. I believe everything that doesn't completely interfere with the basics of what we know (gravity, bacteria, science) are entirely possible since they are considered unfalsifiable and only validated more by the idea's existence, though I don't strafe too far into the skepticism rabbit hole, challenging our existence completely, as I know that can drive you to insanity (Rene Descartes had the same idea). Because of this philosophy of mine, I set myself to understand as many different occultists and religions as I know that the majority of them are strong contenders of what is true. I explore theistic Satanism, Wicca, Greek mythology, Norse mythology and other Pagan religions (I try to stay away from certain monotheistic religions, however, as I know how much people like to rewrite their history and that they're usually infested with not the greatest people). So, I'm wondering if this is a safe place to explore and understand. I am in no way trying to mediate, I am only here to understand, and I believe that that is one of my sole purposes in this life.

My second question is: Is this community a safe place for me as a trans girl?
I first want to make this clear; I know for an absolute fact that I am trans and have known for around 3 years (give or take). I have experimented in many ways trying to be comfortable with myself for a very long time and always having that same ill feeling with no eval. I honestly wish I could re-roll the dice as, well, being trans kinda blows. So yeah, just wanted to make it clear that this is something I've known and challenged for a while and know that this is the only path where I can be truly happy and comfortable with myself, so I don't really want to see anyone say that I'll regret it or something because I know for a fact that I wont. Finishing my tangent there, I just want to know if this is a safe place for me to ask questions and understand everything here without feeling uncomfortable and nervous about how people perceive me. I know that it's inevitable that there will be people here that will make me uncomfortable, but I just want to know if I can just learn and vibe here as a girl.

That's all really. Thank you ^^

 

[Serbon]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

 

[Megistomedes]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

He was speaking about he has penis and why he wanted to be woman is because some woman from his past lives got murdered and he wanted to make her live inside himself by casting some transformational spell or something like this as far as I remember.


Maybe you can help this brother. Whether you are biologically male or not, you can show some guidance I think.

 

[RockSeed13]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

Technically she has an XXY chromosome, she has klinefelter syndrome.

 

[Serbon]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

He was speaking about he has penis and why he wanted to be woman is because some woman from his past lives got murdered and he wanted to make her live inside himself by casting some transformational spell or something like this as far as I remember.


Maybe you can help this brother. Whether you are biologically male or not, you can show some guidance I think.

Didn't Meteor say that he/she felt that he/she "grew a dick astrally"

 

[Megistomedes]

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I'll help the two of you out with your misunderstandings.

I know I look like a woman and all, but I was born mostly male. I even still have a dick for now, although it doesn't exactly act like one.
I may have two X chromosomes, but I also have a Y chromosome, and when it comes down to it, that's the determining factor.

Thanks to 2 years of meditation, I was able to overcome my feelings of shame about my body and mind alike. But that doesn't mean I don't still prefer the female role I've assumed in regards to other people for the past 6 years. I look forward to officially becoming my fiancé's wife, and I have not the slightest bit of interest in detransitioning. Even if I did, my friends would totally freak out about it: it's becoming increasingly obvious how much they hate transgender people, although I don't mind since they don't see me that way.

In fact, I still intend to have surgery, most likely next year; it depends on how the waiting list progresses. If anything, getting over my shame about my genitalia and experimenting with it made it possible for me to go through with it without any regrets. I was able to experience things that most men and women never will, and that's a memory I'll cherish forever. However, whether I like my genitalia or not is ultimately a separate topic from my decision to have surgery. There have always been many reasons for it besides the negative feelings which I've resolved with meditation. People don't need to understand that for the outcome to be the way it will.

I've decided not to report about it in the future either, as it's nobody's business. The Gods won't tell you either since it's private.

Since people just want to believe that what they know is the truth, I'll tell a joke. You know how some people prefer imitation meat? Because it contains less cholesterol, and you don't have to kill animals to make it. You can think of me as something along those lines.

Of course, in the end, I don't feel like an imitation woman. As if I'd care anymore about irrelevant things like that. It should be obvious what the result of my actions is; the result of the sheer amount of energy that built up. People can avert their eyes if they want, but what I meddled with is not something light. It's not like everything is my fault, but a lot of what happened is the consequences of my own actions. And those consequences are real. How do I put it? People change, and I've been changing since before I was born.

It's not as if people's beliefs about me define what I am, because I have a physical body. I'll be sure to treasure it, even if it changes.

But I'm glad I meditated about it. Many of the issues I'd blamed on my body turned out to be solvable just by changing my mindset.

Okay, sorry. I haven't read full of your discussion with others, just a part of it. Sorry if I said something offending.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

You're a man, and we are gonna address you as a man. This is a forum of Truth, and by calling you a woman it would go against everything we believe in.

That's your opinion and I would prefer that you wouldn't push that onto me.

 

[Head Guardian Sophiles Phylax]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

Just do not give up on your commitment to advancing your soul. Beyond controversial topics like what should be done about gender dysphoria, there is also controversy elsewhere. For us to realize the truth about any topic, we first need to advance ourselves. In this way, sometimes aggressive debate is counterproductive, as we could be operating under false pretenses.

Another counterproductive manifestation of this debate is that which results in emotional harm and disillusionment. Because JOS is in a unique position here, with no other substitute for Satanism or spiritual growth, if people leave here then they become literally screwed. This may sound arrogant, but in time you will realize the tangible success JOS brings.

Therefore, we have to be careful not to inflict so much emotional harm to someone, as a result of debates or anger, that they don't feel welcome here. On the flip side, we also have to increase our resolve to never leave this path, regardless of what sort of unpleasant experiences come our way.

In regards to any major difficulties you are experiencing, not limited to just gender dysphoria, you should ask the Gods what steps you should take to best advance yourself. They will always support and love you, and they understand who you are and why you may feel certain ways. At the same time, their guidance is golden and always leads to victory, if we apply it seriously.

 

[tabby]

Often we seek the validation, acceptance, and security of others when we are unable to accept ourselves or provide ourselves security. When we feel that way, we feel very vulnerable to be ourselves among others. Feeling safe in a community, one like JoS, is not based on if others like you, but if you like yourself. If you don't, and you seek the approval of others, doesn't matter where you go, you won't feel safe if others can't accept you and that underlying fear will always haunt your thoughts among those that do accept you, wondering if you allow certain traits or quirks out in the open - will you be shunned and outlawed?

No one needs the acceptance of others to gate keep if we are allowed to exist in a place of learning.

JoS is full of people from every corner of the zodiac. This place won't hurt you, even if others might cause you to feel hurt. If you want to feel safe, accept who you are and your unique traits, and avoid relying on others to accept you. You can feel safe anywhere, so long as you accept yourself and can stand proud of who you are.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_nuV_m_H70

 

[Aquarius]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

You're a man, and we are gonna address you as a man. This is a forum of Truth, and by calling you a woman it would go against everything we believe in.

That's your opinion and I would prefer that you wouldn't push that onto me.

And is yours a fact or an opinion? You asking to be called a woman when you're a man means you're pushing your opinion too.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

It is interesting, or maybe more ridiculous, that somebody would come to a place that is entirely devoted to Truth, and Satan which directly means Truth in Sanskrit, and they try to force everybody to go along with something that is completely and infinitely opposed to any truth.

It really shows what a clown the person is.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Okay, I want to get one thing completely straight.

I'm not forcing anyone to bide by my rules or change their ways, I am only asking for people to respect my boundaries.
Truth is, I have sever anxiety and one of the main things that triggers it is when people call me a man. This conflict alone was enough to make me lie in bed for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days, and not in a very healthy way. People tell me to meditate, but meditation is a lot more difficult when people are actively trying to trigger my anxiety when I specifically told them that something makes me uncomfortable. This isn't about what you think is the truth and what you think is right, this is about not doing a very specific thing that damages me mentally. You can reference a dog without saying its colour, you can reference me without saying what you think my sex is. Again, I couldn't care less about what you think of me, but for the love of Satan and all Daemons of Elysium, just respect my boundaries.

TL;DR: Just don't gender me.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

I have sever anxiety

This anxiety problem is something that will need to be healed and removed for you to have a comfortable life. This is something that we can help you with. Many people here have had anxiety, and it has been cured in many people before.

I am guessing you have a lot of elemental air energy, and it is difficult to control your thoughts. This is something that can be fixed by using the Akasha/Quintessence to balance your elements. It is also necessary to observe your thoughts and see whenever a negative thought comes up. Then it is possible to remove these thoughts, and force yourself to switch to thinking about something else instead. It will be difficult at first because now you have the habit of having negative thoughts, but if you are careful with this and do this consistently, you will create a new habit of having positive thoughts. It will probably take a couple weeks or maybe around a month to change your habits to positive thoughts. But after this, you will not have the negative thoughts anymore.

This is something that I have personally done. And other people have done the same thing. It does work perfectly well. But it requires to actually do the work and make it happen. And also you should do another working to be accepting of yourself.

 

[Memorie_BE]

This conflict alone was enough to make me lie in bed for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days, and not in a very healthy way.

This is really terrible and you have to grow out of it, because how can you even be part of a society when you're like this? The truth is that hard times are coming ahead, and people like you are the first to perish during cataclisms, but fear not as Satan and thr Gods protect their disciples, you still have to do something about your situation though, because it's more than just fucked up.

That's true. I'm trying to grow thicker skin, but that's difficult for me. I'm sure I'll get better with time though.

 

[Head Guardian Sophiles Phylax]

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You could have accomplished the same goal of your message without graphically describing the death and destruction of this person. This could've been done by stating along the lines of "It is very hard for people to get past all characteristics of their gender. Although people may not say anything to you, they subconsciously will perceive you as still masculine. Because this problem is rooted mentally, any physical solutions will not alleviate your suffering, which may potentially get worse as it remains unaddressed."

Yet, for you to extensively write out a dismal and depressing prophecy is only going to sadden the person, not conjure feelings of actions. Beyond that, I am not even sure if you were trying to be constructive, given your conclusion, yet I am giving you the benefit of the doubt.

This person already described themselves as incredibly sensitive to this topic, and in general, so why did you decide to "go for the kill" so to speak? If you want them to advance past this, then they need to meditate, so that is where they should be encouraged.

I know some people who are incredibly sensitive, and they will take your message very deeply into themselves. Sensitive people do not need to be first "broken" down to hear your message. They are already receptive to what you say, including good or bad things. Therefore, what you wrote here could be incredibly hurtful to its recipient, and not in any "good" way.

 

[Memorie_BE]

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You could have accomplished the same goal of your message without graphically describing the death and destruction of this person. This could've been done by stating along the lines of "It is very hard for people to get past all characteristics of their gender. Although people may not say anything to you, they subconsciously will perceive you as still masculine. Because this problem is rooted mentally, any physical solutions will not alleviate your suffering, which may potentially get worse as it remains unaddressed."

Yet, for you to extensively write out a dismal and depressing prophecy is only going to sadden the person, not conjure feelings of actions. Beyond that, I am not even sure if you were trying to be constructive, given your conclusion, yet I am giving you the benefit of the doubt.

This person already described themselves as incredibly sensitive to this topic, and in general, so why did you decide to "go for the kill" so to speak? If you want them to advance past this, then they need to meditate, so that is where they should be encouraged.

I know some people who are incredibly sensitive, and they will take your message very deeply into themselves. Sensitive people do not need to be first "broken" down to hear your message. They are already receptive to what you say, including good or bad things. Therefore, what you wrote here could be incredibly hurtful to its recipient, and not in any "good" way.

Thanks for sticking out for me, though we might not share the same philosophy, I really do appreciate it.

 

[Henu the Great]

I appreciate your concerns, but really, I'll be fine.

You ignore Blitzkreigs advice at your own peril. What he laid out was the method closest if not the best course of action that is currently publicly available for us. This method, spiritual advancement and breaking free of limitations, in other words one way to mature yourself is key for growth. You have shown lack of maturity, and considering you are making permanent life altering changes I think you should reconsider what someone who has superior maturity, even in this commmunity, has to say about the subject.

 

[Memorie_BE]

I appreciate your concerns, but really, I'll be fine.

You ignore Blitzkreigs advice at your own peril. What he laid out was the method closest if not the best course of action that is currently publicly available for us. This method, spiritual advancement and breaking free of limitations, in other words one way to mature yourself is key for growth. You have shown lack of maturity, and considering you are making permanent life altering changes I think you should reconsider what someone who has superior maturity, even in this commmunity, has to say about the subject.

I've looked into my future many times over and I cannot see myself regretful for my actions. Trust me when I say that I've put thought into this, just like anyone should when making permanent decisions.

 

[The Outlaw Torn]

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I think you are just too pure and don’t understand what NOT “going for kill” will result in, for this person and the forum.

Also this is not my writing it is something that many who have been trying to warn against the T have wrote and copied

 

[Henu the Great]

I've looked into my future many times over and I cannot see myself regretful for my actions. Trust me when I say that I've put thought into this, just like anyone should when making permanent decisions.

It is one thing to put thought into a decision, and completely another to understand ramifications of the decision beyond the physical and mental spheres.

 

[tabby]

I appreciate your concerns, but really, I'll be fine.

You ignore Blitzkreigs advice at your own peril. What he laid out was the method closest if not the best course of action that is currently publicly available for us. This method, spiritual advancement and breaking free of limitations, in other words one way to mature yourself is key for growth. You have shown lack of maturity, and considering you are making permanent life altering changes I think you should reconsider what someone who has superior maturity, even in this commmunity, has to say about the subject.

I've looked into my future many times over and I cannot see myself regretful for my actions. Trust me when I say that I've put thought into this, just like anyone should when making permanent decisions.

I would be careful with saying that for certain. It's the same response and line of thinking whenever one has been warned that these actions to solve your problems run a huge risk of leaving you with regret later once what's done is done if you choose to continue to go through with it.

Unless you have the ability of foresight and literally seeing into the future (the psychic ability, not just planning ahead), then one can only judge that they may or may not feel a certain way based on their current mode of thought and feelings. We can say to ourselves "no, I've thought long and hard about this, and I won't regret it. I see myself only being happy from this decision."... it's always a bittersweet thing to think... Many things have ended in disaster because I blinded myself with that thinking.

Learn from the mistakes of others in front of you on this path. Regret often comes to those who think they know everything about their future self.

 

[The Outlaw Torn]

SWG, is that you buddy!?

I likely got this passage the same place he got it from. It was popular all around 4chan and other such places. You can just search for “you will never be a real woman copy” and it will come up. If this to you means that I am someone else then I can’t help it. You can have all the strange theories you want.

 

[The Outlaw Torn]

Oh well thanks for explaining. You didn't have to. I don't hang around 4chan (and other such places) so I wouldn't have known.

I did have to explain because you like to start rumors like this. I was reading on an older post and hilariously enough you said that this individual was an alt account of Jack.

So is this like inception where it’s an account within an account with one puppet master behind it? I wonder who the alt of me will be.

If you were joking then whatever.

 

[Fuchs]

Basic facts, basic reality, and the facts of every piece of DNA in every cell in your entire body. You are a man. There is nothing about this that is opinion, and there is nothing subjective. There is no opinion that exists, only the most basic simple facts.

If you want yourself to look, or dress, or act like a woman, there is nothing wrong with this and you have the freedom to do this. Nobody will stop you from doing this.

But the fact is that it is a man trying to imitate a woman. You are not going to subvert and erase the Universal Law of nature. Your own delusions are not going to overpower all of the universe and force it all to abide by your lies, and your exact opposite of all truth and reality.

Also if OP dies and reincarnates, he will have a penis again, but did live probably half his former live without one (after done surgery), this will be a big hang up.

3 things stay always the same: gender, sexual orientation, race. As the soul was placed/generated in the body according to these. The body is a reflection off the soul.

OP could try this rune working with only 18 reps instead of 111:

2. Intelligence and memory working (color visualised runes and aura yellow)

MANNAZ+LÖGR+ODHAL+PERTHRO (Madur+ Lögur+Odal+Pero norwegian spelled one breath together) x111 reps

"My intelligence and memory are increasing in a healthy and beneficial way for me. I am acquiring knowledge about myself, the runes and the universe now, continuosly and forever." x 18 reps

If that's true, then I will never reincarnate. I don't care if that's impossible, I'm not suffering for eternity when I didn't do anything wrong.

It´s the same with people who commit suicide, they take thear problems to the next live, but can have a weaker body to overcome these. Also something to note, even if you do the surgery on the astral your body is still as it was before, it is the same if someone would have a accident and loose a arm on the astral the arm is still attached. You can in ignorance mutilate your body, but this will not change your soul. We all have to solve our problems in this live or they will follow us.

 

[Aquarius]

SWG, is that you buddy!?

I likely got this passage the same place he got it from. It was popular all around 4chan and other such places. You can just search for “you will never be a real woman copy” and it will come up. If this to you means that I am someone else then I can’t help it. You can have all the strange theories you want.

Oh well thanks for explaining. You didn't have to. I don't hang around 4chan (and other such places) so I wouldn't have known.

I also thought it was him, but then he started promoting rape, incest and other weird things, SWG was a better dude.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Also if OP dies and reincarnates, he will have a penis again, but did live probably half his former live without one (after done surgery), this will be a big hang up.

3 things stay always the same: gender, sexual orientation, race. As the soul was placed/generated in the body according to these. The body is a reflection off the soul.

OP could try this rune working with only 18 reps instead of 111:

2. Intelligence and memory working (color visualised runes and aura yellow)

MANNAZ+LÖGR+ODHAL+PERTHRO (Madur+ Lögur+Odal+Pero norwegian spelled one breath together) x111 reps

"My intelligence and memory are increasing in a healthy and beneficial way for me. I am acquiring knowledge about myself, the runes and the universe now, continuosly and forever." x 18 reps

If that's true, then I will never reincarnate. I don't care if that's impossible, I'm not suffering for eternity when I didn't do anything wrong.

It´s the same with people who commit suicide, they take thear problems to the next live, but can have a weaker body to overcome these. Also something to note, even if you do the surgery on the astral your body is still as it was before, it is the same if someone would have a accident and loose a arm on the astral the arm is still attached. You can in ignorance mutilate your body, but this will not change your soul. We all have to solve our problems in this live or they will follow us.

Unfortunately, these aren't problems that can be solved with consistent meditation, it's engraved into the core of my soul and those problems never go away.

 

[Voice of Enki [SG]]

If that's true, then I will never reincarnate. I don't care if that's impossible, I'm not suffering for eternity when I didn't do anything wrong.

It´s the same with people who commit suicide, they take thear problems to the next live, but can have a weaker body to overcome these. Also something to note, even if you do the surgery on the astral your body is still as it was before, it is the same if someone would have a accident and loose a arm on the astral the arm is still attached. You can in ignorance mutilate your body, but this will not change your soul. We all have to solve our problems in this live or they will follow us.

Unfortunately, these aren't problems that can be solved with consistent meditation, it's engraved into the core of my soul and those problems never go away.

Most people like you think this way, which is why this issue remains and appears impossible to solve.

When you say to yourself this is engraved within the core of your soul and can never go away, you are actively programming this dross to engrave itself upon you, and you are programming your subconscious mind to cement this dross within yourself, making it a perpetual issue that will continue to haunt you until it destroys you.

The first step to overcoming this dross is understanding none of this is cemented within yourself and realizing it is a blockage which can be cleared as you realize your true self and try to advance as a living being.


Meteor understands a little about this process, as they have recently started clearing their dross related to this which has seemed impossible to them previously.

After a lot of counsel and advice from people here, he finally realized the answers to overcome these doubts and harmful beliefs about his self lie within and that these can be overcome through self-reflection and self-realization, opening your perception up to your true self which has been neglected and overshadowed by the false and clouded perceptions the mind clung to desperately due to the dross upon the soul.

Willful ignorance on your true self and rejection of reality caused by dross of the mind and soul are what makes one feel and believe as you do.

Don't reinforce these lies you tell to yourself, as you only suffer under it until it ends you.

Life is to lived, and the purpose of life is to advance and grow, not to perpetually degrade itself and reject itself until nothing of it remains.

Life is to seek eternal expansion and everlasting existence.

Not to jump of a cliff because you believe the ground below is a better place to be, remaining willfully ignorant of the fact this act only ends in your demise because you let your beliefs cloud the reality before you. Accept it as it is no matter how uncomfortable you think it, and move on from there to seek improvement and to grow positively.

That is part of what being an Zevism entails.

To seek understanding on life and all aspects of the self, in order to overcome life's hurdles and challenges and to master the reality we find ourselves in so nothing may impede our rise to Godhood, not even our own selves.

Hail Satan!

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Unfortunately, these aren't problems that can be solved with consistent meditation, it's engraved into the core of my soul and those problems never go away.

You have the ability to create a much larger amount of change than you are now able to imagine. There is zero possibility for your soul to ever be anything other than a man, and even the gods can't change this about you.

But all of your problem and all of your pain, this is something that can be completely healed and removed. And when you work consistently to heal yourself, the change becomes exponential. At first it will feel like nothing is changing, but after enough time you will be completely healed and completely comfortable. You will have no pain, and you will be comfortable with who you are. All of this is possible, and it is not even difficult. You do not need to do a large or difficult amount of work, you just have to do some small or medium amount of work every day. Workings to clean your soul, workings to accept yourself, and removing all curses. If you just do a small amount of these three things every day, in a few months from now all of your pain and discomfort will be solidly in the process of being removed, and a large amount of it will already be gone. You will feel a weight be removed from you, and you will feel like a completely new person. You will be comfortable with yourself, and you will love yourself.

And I am sure that it would not even take too much time for you to start feeling this. Your ability to heal yourself is infinitely larger than anything you can imagine, especially when the gods are helping you. And this is the entire purpose for all of us being here, to heal ourselves.

If you keep going on the path you are on now, and you keep working in a poisonous and self destructive way, it will not end well for you. Just the same way as we have infinite ability to heal ourselves, we also have the infinite ability to hurt ourselves. And there is no limit to how deeply you are able to hurt and injure yourself if that is what you want to do.

You have no ability to interfere with the cycle of reincarnation. This is a direct law of nature. You have absolutely no ability to kill your soul, or to stop yourself from reincarnating. No matter how deeply you injure and hurt your soul, you will always keep reincarnating. And in each lifetime, your pain will only be multiplied by what it was in the previous lifetime. This is the same reason why suicide is absolutely the wrong idea and should never be done. Because whatever pain the person was in in that moment, it will only be multiplied larger in the next life.

The way to stop this pain is to work on healing yourself, and work on appreciating yourself. The same way that a painful person's pain multiplies in each lifetime, a happy and healthy person's strength and blessings are also multiplied larger in each lifetime. And as you work on healing yourself, all of the pain is removed from your soul, and your next lifetime will start from a point of being happy and comfortable. You will have no pain or unhappiness in your next lifetime if you do the work now in healing yourself.

Just know that the effect of your actions are exponential. Whatever you do in this life, the same thing will be infinitely larger in your next life. You do not want to spend this lifetime by continuing to hate yourself. If you spend one hour today on a working to love and accept yourself, and to remove all curses and pain, this one hour of work will result in many years of pain being removed from your future. As the energy accumulation is exponential, the input of effort in healing yourself really is multiplied by many years of effect.

 

[Memorie_BE]

It´s the same with people who commit suicide, they take thear problems to the next live, but can have a weaker body to overcome these. Also something to note, even if you do the surgery on the astral your body is still as it was before, it is the same if someone would have a accident and loose a arm on the astral the arm is still attached. You can in ignorance mutilate your body, but this will not change your soul. We all have to solve our problems in this live or they will follow us.

Unfortunately, these aren't problems that can be solved with consistent meditation, it's engraved into the core of my soul and those problems never go away.

Most people like you think this way, which is why this issue remains and appears impossible to solve.

When you say to yourself this is engraved within the core of your soul and can never go away, you are actively programming this dross to engrave itself upon you, and you are programming your subconscious mind to cement this dross within yourself, making it a perpetual issue that will continue to haunt you until it destroys you.

The first step to overcoming this dross is understanding none of this is cemented within yourself and realizing it is a blockage which can be cleared as you realize your true self and try to advance as a living being.


Meteor understands a little about this process, as they have recently started clearing their dross related to this which has seemed impossible to them previously.

After a lot of counsel and advice from people here, he finally realized the answers to overcome these doubts and harmful beliefs about his self lie within and that these can be overcome through self-reflection and self-realization, opening your perception up to your true self which has been neglected and overshadowed by the false and clouded perceptions the mind clung to desperately due to the dross upon the soul.

Willful ignorance on your true self and rejection of reality caused by dross of the mind and soul are what makes one feel and believe as you do.

Don't reinforce these lies you tell to yourself, as you only suffer under it until it ends you.

Life is to lived, and the purpose of life is to advance and grow, not to perpetually degrade itself and reject itself until nothing of it remains.

Life is to seek eternal expansion and everlasting existence.

Not to jump of a cliff because you believe the ground below is a better place to be, remaining willfully ignorant of the fact this act only ends in your demise because you let your beliefs cloud the reality before you. Accept it as it is no matter how uncomfortable you think it, and move on from there to seek improvement and to grow positively.

That is part of what being an Zevism entails.

To seek understanding on life and all aspects of the self, in order to overcome life's hurdles and challenges and to master the reality we find ourselves in so nothing may impede our rise to Godhood, not even our own selves.

Hail Satan!

But who's to say that's really true? As someone who experiences these emotions and problems personally, I can make more authentic conclusions with how and why it effects me. I see it as apart of my core personality just like how sexuality is and you can't change your deeper identity without damaging yourself immensely. I understand that you can change a lot of things about yourself, but I strongly believe that if I ever change the way I feel about myself gender-wise, I would be committing identity suicide and that is arguably a worse fate then death. I mean, it would be the equivalent of you having to live as the opposite sex and gender for eternity and having to learn to be okay with it. Most people would see that as a curse.

 

[Username]

Hi Melodie. After reading your post, you seem like someone curious who approaches things with an open mind and without any bias as seen from your approach on different religions. You also seem someone intelligent as frankly, I couldn't understand the first half of the paragraph about validating idea's existence and what not but definitely know that its something very intellectual and beyond my reach of comprehension. Perhaps you could explain it to me, actually could you explain it to me ? This part particularly:

"since they are considered unfalsifiable and only validated more by the idea's existence, though I don't strafe too far into the skepticism rabbit hole"

I am not smart so could you explain it in simple terms ? Anyways, so I see that you plan on getting a gender surgery. To be honest, as like others, I also recommend strongly against it. Not because of mental health issues only but actual physical complications too.

Please watch this video:
https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/transgender-surgery!-totally-worth-it*:a

Whether you get the surgery or not, this video above should be helpful as it talks about trans people's experience/physical complications after surgery. According to one of the transgender people, his doc quoted a 50% chances of developing complications.

Frankly finding any video that correctly explained actual physical complications regarding transgender surgery was quite hard, especially so late at night and after not having proper sleep for days. However, using my inspiration and admiration towards you as a fuel, I finally found it so that whether you get the surgery or not, at least this video will inform you on what you are getting yourself into.

Mental pain aside, just the thought of having a person go through such physical pain and tens of surgeries to change their gender is not worth it in my opinion. One of the person in the video went through 50 surgeries which even made the doctor lost in thought and contemplating. Although the last two trans people talk about how all the torturous pain was worth it, you can see the self denial due to pain and regret in their eyes.

It would hurt me to see you go through such physical pain. Adding onto the mental pain, its just not worth it in my opinion. Also, see how the transgender people adapt after post op in these two videos:

Part 1: https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/nullo-%E2%80%9Ci-wanna-be-castrated%E2%80%9D-extreme:b
Part 2: https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/nullo-%E2%80%A2-asexual,-agender-part-2-of-2:0

There are also other videos on her channel which explain the experiences about people both before and after getting the surgeries. I highly recommend you to watch them as it would be beneficial to you. My reason for you wanting to avoid the surgery is simple. It is because I simply do not want you to go through such physical pain and complications. It would hurt me extremely so, to see you go through such pain. I do not want you to live a life where you have to wake up 5 times at night just to be unable to pee, all the while seeing your family's best effort to comfort you despite their pain as seen in the video. The family's sadness is apparent in their eyes despite their best attempt at hiding them. The whole experience is painful not only for the one who is getting the surgery but the family overall. 50% chance of complications is just not worth it.

So please, whether you get the surgeries or not, at least watch those videos. I admire you and I do not want you to be paining 24x7. I look forward to your reply after you have watched at least the above three videos. My head is paining now and its late at night as I type this with deep emotions. Goodnight, oh I mean Good morning/afternoon/evening etc whatever the time is there. I look forward to your reply. Take care.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Hi Melodie. After reading your post, you seem like someone curious who approaches things with an open mind and without any bias as seen from your approach on different religions. You also seem someone intelligent as frankly, I couldn't understand the first half of the paragraph about validating idea's existence and what not but definitely know that its something very intellectual and beyond my reach of comprehension. Perhaps you could explain it to me, actually could you explain it to me ? This part particularly:

"since they are considered unfalsifiable and only validated more by the idea's existence, though I don't strafe too far into the skepticism rabbit hole"

I am not smart so could you explain it in simple terms ? Anyways, so I see that you plan on getting a gender surgery. To be honest, as like others, I also recommend strongly against it. Not because of mental health issues only but actual physical complications too.

Please watch this video:
https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/transgender-surgery!-totally-worth-it*:a

Whether you get the surgery or not, this video above should be helpful as it talks about trans people's experience/physical complications after surgery. According to one of the transgender people, his doc quoted a 50% chances of developing complications.

Frankly finding any video that correctly explained actual physical complications regarding transgender surgery was quite hard, especially so late at night and after not having proper sleep for days. However, using my inspiration and admiration towards you as a fuel, I finally found it so that whether you get the surgery or not, at least this video will inform you on what you are getting yourself into.

Mental pain aside, just the thought of having a person go through such physical pain and tens of surgeries to change their gender is not worth it in my opinion. One of the person in the video went through 50 surgeries which even made the doctor lost in thought and contemplating. Although the last two trans people talk about how all the torturous pain was worth it, you can see the self denial due to pain and regret in their eyes.

It would hurt me to see you go through such physical pain. Adding onto the mental pain, its just not worth it in my opinion. Also, see how the transgender people adapt after post op in these two videos:

Part 1: https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/nullo-%E2%80%9Ci-wanna-be-castrated%E2%80%9D-extreme:b
Part 2: https://odysee.com/@Aslightlytwistedfemale:7/nullo-%E2%80%A2-asexual,-agender-part-2-of-2:0

There are also other videos on her channel which explain the experiences about people both before and after getting the surgeries. I highly recommend you to watch them as it would be beneficial to you. My reason for you wanting to avoid the surgery is simple. It is because I simply do not want you to go through such physical pain and complications. It would hurt me extremely so, to see you go through such pain. I do not want you to live a life where you have to wake up 5 times at night just to be unable to pee, all the while seeing your family's best effort to comfort you despite their pain as seen in the video. The family's sadness is apparent in their eyes despite their best attempt at hiding them. The whole experience is painful not only for the one who is getting the surgery but the family overall. 50% chance of complications is just not worth it.

So please, whether you get the surgeries or not, at least watch those videos. I admire you and I do not want you to be paining 24x7. I look forward to your reply after you have watched at least the above three videos. My head is paining now and its late at night as I type this with deep emotions. Goodnight, oh I mean Good morning/afternoon/evening etc whatever the time is there. I look forward to your reply. Take care.

To explain what I mean here: "since they are considered unfalsifiable and only validated more by the idea's existence, though I don't strafe too far into the skepticism rabbit hole", I'm saying that the existence of a concept that can't be proven wrong is only validated by how the idea exists in the first place. For example, the idea a soul can't be falsified; you would need some kind of method of seeing if someone has a soul and if a soul didn't exist, then a method like that couldn't either because there wouldn't be something to look for. That being said, the idea of a soul exists for a reason; it's an idea that makes sense and is something that can sensibly explain how people exist.

Also, I'm am well aware of the complications, it's one of the first things you're told when browsing the certain surgery methods. Some methods have more complications than others and some can be more painful. Probably the two universal complications that most of the surgeries share would probably be a slight risk of infection and the certainty of having to dilate for life (having to stick a rod up there so that it doesn't heal together). Other risks of certain surgeries can include prolapse, inner hair growth, damaged tissue and just being botched in general. Thankfully, the technique I'm looking forward too has minimal risk and is performed by two of the best surgeons around. My technique can also count intercourse as dilation after a few months too.

The risks wouldn't really turn me away that much neither as I just really want to rid myself of this parasitic Medusa hair (mind my euphemism).

 

[Henu the Great]

The risks wouldn't really turn me away that much neither as I just really want to rid myself of this parasitic Medusa hair (mind my euphemism).

Spiritual and mental issues will not be resolved like this.

Next lifetime you will be born as a man once more, and then you would have accumulated extra karma from mutilated body. Which means more problems.

0/10, do not recommend.

Instead, the spritual methods that have been relayed to you on this topic, I would recommend. Along with steady meditation routine. This way you can resolve whatever that is ailing you and continue better off to the next lifetime.

 

[Memorie_BE]

The risks wouldn't really turn me away that much neither as I just really want to rid myself of this parasitic Medusa hair (mind my euphemism).

Spiritual and mental issues will not be resolved like this.

Next lifetime you will be born as a man once more, and then you would have accumulated extra karma from mutilated body. Which means more problems.

0/10, do not recommend.

Instead, the spritual methods that have been relayed to you on this topic, I would recommend. Along with steady meditation routine. This way you can resolve whatever that is ailing you and continue better off to the next lifetime.

I don't really care. I'll keep doing it until the Gods take the hint. I'm not gonna sit here and let the universe decide who I can and cannot be. I would literally rather be erased than be trapped as this sex for eternity.

I am my own person and I decide who I am. If karma's against that, then I don't want to live in this universe; it's that simple.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Alright everyone, this thread has gone on for a while and I'm a little exhausted with it. I will no longer be replying to anyone. I hope y'all can understand.

 

[Head Guardian Sophiles Phylax]

Personally, I'd ban him so that people may stop wasting time on him, but the modus operandi of the moderators is different, I hope they come to realize how letting this sick dude write these blocks of text can affect negatively the people reading it, especially the more naive ones.

Because this has to be balanced by the freedom of speech, as well as allowing the person in question to grow beyond their problems. This is further complicated when this person may still be helpful in other ways as well, or express a willingness to advance, etc.

Of course, these principles can still get strained, which would warrant some sort of harsher action, but there isn't really a good way to limit someone without banning them, due to both human factors and factors involving forum-based communication.

So there isn't always an easy solution except responding to the person, or the thread in general, or hoping someone else does something similar to add a positive influence. Continual reorganization of JOS information, as well as people continuing to learn on a individual basis also mitigates delusions or errors.

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Those who are air dominant can have multiple different thoughts or questions, requiring even more time to be spent communicating with them. It gets even worse when they may be ungrounded, placing more weight on some erroneous thought, rather than analyzing how it appears in practice.

As a side note, this is why Mercury is exalted in Aquarius since that relates to telepathic communication, which is way easier than spending 40 minutes reading, then replying in detail to a post.

 

[Henu the Great]

I don't really care. I'll keep doing it until the Gods take the hint. I'm not gonna sit here and let the universe decide who I can and cannot be. I would literally rather be erased than be trapped as this sex for eternity.

I am my own person and I decide who I am. If karma's against that, then I don't want to live in this universe; it's that simple.

You do not understand the position of Gods. They know you better than you do know yourself, so it is not that they would not understand. In fact, you do not understand.

Karma is not against anything. Karma is consequence, your actions have consequences.