brendenrolls <brendenrolls@...;
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Glad to be here
Sun, Jan 27, 2013 4:35:58 AM
<td val[/IMG] First, I would like to share my past experiences before Father Satan saved me from the lies of the enemy(s).
Before, as a young child, I was raise in a christian environment. I believed the rubbish back then, because I thought that the adults wouldn't lie to me. Upon reaching my 11th birthday, my grandmother wanted me to accept the "god". Once it happened, I felt absolutely nothing, like not a feeling of relief and or anything that is positive. I began to think "How come nothing happened? Why does life feel the same?" I was also enrolled into a private school that shoved more of the distasteful junk down my throat. I bought into it on the outside and went along with the very annoying "worshiping". Very rarely, I did a "prayer" asking for help (but either it came out negatively or never happened at all). After I told my grandparents that I would want to be in a public school, I felt relief because I never was being forced fed words from a book that contradicted itself. When I was 3rd quarter of my junior year, I met my current lover. I felt so in love with him, that I think of him as a husband, and I promise to care for him and protect him from anything/one that hurts him for an unjudicial reason. We had our break up,then we got reunited then broke up again. Later of the year of 2011, I heard and saw him going out with a guy that was cruel, cold hearted, and just abusive to him. This is when I turned to wicca/paganisum. I studied them, and did carried out magicks to get my lover away from the poor of an excuse for a man he was dating, and have him come back to me, because I want to care for him like no one ever has. I also called upon what was known as an "Intranquail Spirit" to torment the guy abusing my lover. I remember doing a ritual that was to Isis (who I did not know it was the magnificent Astaroth). Once I was done with the ritual, I heard in a proud, confident, and strong voice tell me "He shall return". I felt so relieved and I slept well that night. Months ago, he was reunited with me and we are happy now. I called upon Isis (Astaroth), so many times before I slept, thanking her for having my beloved back where he is safe. Shortly there after, I began getting curious into Satanism. I began reading a lot of articles on the JoS website. I was amazed, and honestly shocked that I was lied to in the previous "faiths". They all lied to me about Satan, and saying all His works are evil. I am learning a lot about Saltan, and I love it. The writings and the knowledge the clergy have given so far (from what I read) have been written and shared in an excellent way. I always look forward to reading as many sermons and other teachings of meditation, rituals etc. When I am on my breaks at work, I take out my phone and go to the JoS website and read until I go back to work. I feel I AM going somewhere, instead of just throwing my hands up to nothing being there.
I did my dedication ritual a night or two ago, and I had to do it hastily. The only thing i did that was different than what the ritual instructed me to do was prick my finger. Instead, after I bathed, I shaved and I had a small cut on my leg, i dipped the pen cap in the small cut and got a small bit of blood on it and I signed my name on the paper I wrote the devotion on. I discarded the tools I used so that my grandmother wouldn't find them. Also, upon leaving the bathroom (where I did the ritual) I saw a white figure run away from me. I was shocked but not moved. I knew that the enemy left me. I am glad that fiend left me and I feel relieved of a heavy feeling on my head.
At times, I speak a plea to Satan in a whisper, but what I would want to do, is to call upon Him and sit down with Him. I want to meet Him face to face and ask for His guidance on what He wants me to become. I also, honestly feel that it is disrespectful to call Him "Satan" because of the meaning of the name. I would prefer to call Him something that makes Him divine and beautiful like "The Shinning One", but that is what I would have to ask Him.
I appreciate being here, and I look forward to meeting as many people as I can here. I also look forward into learning more and more. Also, I would like help coming up with a daily routine to help awaken myself more into Spiritual Satanism, and to have a way that I can have a time with me and Satan himself.
Thank you for having me,
HAIL SATAN, Brenden
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