Zevism Amonra said:
Godmode said:
Labels are a big problem obviously, I wish I knew the answer to this but probably your best bet for getting people to understand you is to just go by "male woman" or "woman that is basically a man". My friend who is like you also has that problem, I think she (last time I talked to her she still went by she) called herself a trans-man but it wasn't quite right for her either. My friend's roommate is also like this, but is a female-man instead of a male-woman. The label isn't as important as people just knowing who you are I suppose but it'd also be sweet if there were just another word for this.
I have male chromosomes and I still have them. This is what mostly the doctors were confused about as why I am the way I . A lot changed as I gotten older. But I will never call myself a woman or male women, I call myself male/man not a, trans man. That’s what I try to educate people but I am lucky to meet individuals men and women who accept me as male and not a trans. Man.
I don’t feel half of the people in this forum understands where I’m coming from, not saying you do but I noticed some of the replies seem to be limited on what they think they know about people like myself. This is why I am thinking about disassociating myself from JoS (no offense) the knowledge is limited.
Most people here do not have or do not know about the situation you're in. It is hard to show compassion or understanding in such a case.
Look, the only way that a difference can be made here, is if you stay, and if people that have similar issues that come across here, at least have someone to talk to that does somewhat understand.
I guess that that is also why they made or organized the LGBT community in the first place.
People are not solitary beings. Together we stand strong and build a lot of new things. Civilisation is not build alone.
You need to find your place in your own time.
I understand that you may hate yourself for some of it (or maybe I expressed that wrong) just as much as the fact that I hate wearing glasses every single day of my life simply because I can't even read a book without them.
I just want to wake up, open my eyes, and see everything clear rather than an unfocussed continuous blur whilst my eyes are trying to get things clear (but obviously can't).
I am not telling you to accept the situation as it is, but I am telling you, to make the best of it.
To consider leaving this place because of your own personal issues that do not quite align.. isn't that a stupid reason?
You came here, dedicated I bet, and felt like you were meant to be here, am I right? So why say that you're leaving?