Feeling as I've gotten more distant from the path

[Valentine1699]

Hello, Zevist family I've been inactive in my spiritual development recently & inactive in helping the community.

With life going on I haven't had Zevism at the forefront of my mind the way I've had it in the past especially in the first few months following my dedication.

& I've felt a since of apathy to some degree about my own life & spiritual development & our mission, which I feel very guily & shameful about.

I've felt a since of doubt in my abilities to advance myself & a since of distance from the Gods & a feeling of not living up to anywhere near my potential & I've felt like I've let the Gods & myself down In many ways by being lazy, distracted, & engaging in unhealthy behaviors.

I don't believe I've done anything so bad as to truly upset the Gods, although I haven't felt their attention & love the way I used to.

I also feel as I've been a bad example of a Zevist to the people close to me who I've told about the TOZ & my faith & although I do believe that I did a good job presenting the information truthfully & professionally & ethically & have a good understanding of the TOZ content after reading thousands of pages of sermons I haven't been a good living example of it which has caused ad homiem attacks against the information I was presenting because of negative behaviours I was engaging in.

I'm seeking advice in what I can do to reconnect to the path.

I feel I have made signifigant steps in the last 2 months by getting completely sober, eating better, being more consistent & disciplined with my workouts & going to BJJ classes

I've been doing AC & AOP & some affirmations for a few minutes before bed but haven't been doing proper meditation sessions, yoga sessions, rituals, or workings.

It's not an issue of me not knowing what to do, it's simply caring enough to consistently take action on it.

Has anyone else felt this way? If so how have you gone about getting reconnected to the path?

 

[Kouros Aionios]

It sounds like you've been doing a great job recently getting sober and becoming more disciplined with your fitness. Keep it up!

Try to apply that same level of discipline to your meditation practice. If you're ever having trouble caring enough about it, remind yourself what all of this is for. The work you do on your soul stays with you through lifetimes. To advance and become a higher being, this is one of the most crucial tasks you can undertake.

When you don't feel like meditating, remind yourself every day that you're doing this for the evolution of your existence. There are many things in life we don't feel like doing because of laziness or lack of motivation, yet we learn to do them anyway because they're necessary for our well-being. Of all those disciplines, meditation is certainly one of the most important, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and in every dimension of reality.

Remember to take it day by day, hour by hour, and slowly incorporate more and more meditation into your routine within healthy reason, and you will thank yourself, your soul will thank you, and the Gods will be proud of you.

 

[Daemontech [NG]]

Greetings Brother, I'm happy to see you climbing your way back on the Path.

I understand what you feel, I have been there, the laziness and feeling like a bad example of our faith towards outsiders, and you'll have to trust my word when I say it is very much possible to break out of it, with effort.

In your case, it seems like it would be a very good thing to do the 40 day meditation program. Even if you did it already in the past. The point of it is to build a meditation routine, and with it, discipline. This is how you get back on track.

At one point, you need to realize it deep within yourself, that you WANT this.
You want MORE in life, you don't want to stay at the same level until the day you die.

There is no secret to this, you "just do it". You're tired? You do it. You're sad? You do it.

And very importantly, failing, skipping something, is not the end of the world.
Failing is only seriously a problem when it's definitive. Treat every failure as a lesson and stand back up every time.
You skipped something? Make the best effort possible to not skip it tomorrow.

The Gods are watching. Your Guardian Daemon is watching. Even if you may not feel like it.

Here is the link to the 40 day meditation program:

40 Day Meditation Program - Library of Thoth

Read this article from the Library of Thoth.

libraryofthoth.org

I strongly suggest you do this, to get back on a meditation routine, and to make the Gods proud.

 

[Henu the Great]

Prayer seems to be a bit underrated, or at least not often mentioned.

The following article contains many useful tips on how to connect with Deities.

https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...nd-delivered-as-sermon.308158?go=post:1200850