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I want to perform the physical initiation ritual (I’ve already done it in the astral).
But I have some subconscious fear from my past religion, like: "What if all of this is a lie?" "What if the terrible hell is real?" and thoughts like that.
There is also one very important thing bothering me. For me, this forum serves as a second guide after the JoS website in spirituality, and I once had an unpleasant experience on the forum, after which I felt very bad . Now I have, so to speak, a somewhat negative association with forums. I understand that if, for example, the forum were to close or I got banned, it could be seen as my spiritual family rejecting me. These two issues are making it very difficult for me to do the physical initiation.
I want to perform the physical initiation ritual (I’ve already done it in the astral).
But I have some subconscious fear from my past religion, like: "What if all of this is a lie?" "What if the terrible hell is real?" and thoughts like that.
There is also one very important thing bothering me. For me, this forum serves as a second guide after the JoS website in spirituality, and I once had an unpleasant experience on the forum, after which I felt very bad . Now I have, so to speak, a somewhat negative association with forums. I understand that if, for example, the forum were to close or I got banned, it could be seen as my spiritual family rejecting me. These two issues are making it very difficult for me to do the physical initiation.
