What he is? What exactly do you think he is hiding that he may or may not reveal? Those of us who have a very personal relationship with Father know who he is and what he's about: evolution of the spirit. He cares about us and our daily lives but the main objective is to teach us how to evolve...
Maybe it's time for you to do nothing for a while. Sounds like you are extremely diligent in all of you efforts. Maybe Father wants you to rest. And wait. Just an idea Hun.
Miss Kandi
Remember. It's your intention that matters. NOT the formalities. You don't have to mutilate yourself. That's not what it's about. It's just symbolism. He knows your heart. Trust me that's what he sees. NOT THE BLOOD.
Miss Kandi
So sorry to hear you are not well. I will feel better in a day or two. In the meantime, spend a lot of time with Father and the family. Do some extensive meditation and try to relax and calm your spirit as much as possible.
Miss Kandi