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This is the last thing I am asking you, I can't find your e-mail anymore. I want it deleted partially because of safety reasons too. If you please can do it that would be great and appreciated. I have no doubts anymore that I should have it removed from here.

I somehow forgot to add that Sagittarius is also very good for publishing books, so you can go for Sun in Saggitarius as well.

As an addition on previous topic I wrote, I want go add a bit on the mind and on siddhis, how to activate them and empower them, how to understand your mind better. I am talking simply from my own experiences and from what I learned and noticed so far. It's a bit longer read tho... Some of...

You shouldn't be freaking out, that will not help you. As Thoth has said, fear is an obstacle in spirituality. Having a common sense and knowing when to back off is important, but freaking out every time something weird or new happens especially if you are trying to advance here can only set you...

Moon in Aquarius, sun in Leo or Capricorn..

Depends on what you are aiming for the most. When moon is in capricorn this brings good luck to any business or workings for it that are started at that time ( workings for money and success) and can bring lots of money, I have found out that moon in cancer can be also good if you would like...

Focus for a while on healing and unblocking base and sacral chakra, but you might wanna work on your hip chakras too. Sometimes, in some cases 6th chakra is badly affected by something too which can cause part of the issue, other part is in sacral and base. You can start a working as well to...

For me usually it takes several days to notice results, but it depends on the situation. Every working is bringing changes, it's just that sometimes we fail to notice it at first, and some workings actually simply are taking more time to start seriously fixing stuff. I had one working I...

Okay I am getting back with 2 more artworks, one of them is just a sketch I made for one Zevism in private but I ended up really liking it actually. This one I made for Thoth, I got really inspired to do it in this way, with snow and everything. I wanted some cold winter scenery, with maybe...

Also, Sundara, you can think of me as one of the worst examples idc ( mostly just wanted to say that I understand that sometimes issues can appear) but honestly it bugs me a lot when I see people lacking resolve as you do and to claim they don't even want to meditate anymore or advance in any...

Well the thing is as I said that in my first reply is that the main issue is not really the serpent itself and meditations, tho everybody wanted me to believe that because they are afraid of the serpent as fuck. I checked my transits and many other things, and turns out something bad is...

When it comes to Kundalini and similar in most cases Clergy should reply if they can, so no reasons to listen me much here but... Tons and tons of people are heavily plagued by the corrupted Vedic and Hindu writings and by the Xianity and it can be seen the moment when they try to mediate and...

Well that is cool, thanks for sharing your story and I'm glad my post was of some use to you. I wrote this mostly to motivate people to think about some of those things and to try to clean their souls more so they can attract better people to their lives. I know very well by now how nasty it...

Thank youuu Thank you all here!

Okay I checked again and larger version can't be found anywhere anymore ( I have few places I am saving those, talking about a mess at this point). But my painting of Sorath is large enough for some normal sized print so there shouldn't be many issues. Sorry for replying late.

I got really insipired and bugged out with some things about attracting people and relationships that I realized I should share with some people here, in a case they need to hear it. Last few weeks I am seriously working to get rid of my bad karma, some fears, hang-ups, and I started a munka...

That is sweet, glad you like it. Hopefully printed version will look okay, if you need a larger version of that painting I think I still have one on my comp in a case that one is a bit small.

Please contact me here - [ email redacted ], so we can talk about it in private and make plans. And thanks for a positive feedback. Hope you will find some more time to practice drawing too.

Okay something new here now. Finally I managed to finish this digital painting I started long ago. I always had weird issues when I tried finishing it, but now finally the time has come. Actually for a long time I barely could work on anything properly when it comes to digital art... Here I...

When you dedicate and start advancing, you will most likely experience phases in life where you will lose tons of people in your life. Just regular cleaning, AoP and empowering chakras can suddenly make tons of people to leave you naturally, especially if they were bad for you in some way, or...

Enemy never teaches us properly about emotions and intuition, instead, they want us to turn into souless bots. They do not teach us about balance. All enemy wants us is to hate it all, instead of working on it. Enemy also started hating Pisces and almost everything that goes with it. They used...

Some people who have tons of problems will need to work on those after they dedicate themselves and start meditating, not everything will be fixed over the night. Some Zevism might have so many issues that it will take them years to finally start living a life properly. But then later it gets...

Usually fun starts only later hahaha. This sounds like just the beginning, symptoms can become super severe, but still don't worry, it will pass once you clean some blockages and bindings on your soul. You should focus more on cleaning and healing from now on. And in contrary to the popular...

I will write this in a case that maybe someone needed to hear some of those things and to sort out some things in their mind, because I know that many people struggle with this and that they don't still understand what are they supposed to do about this... It might be frigtening to face your...

Forums aren't perfect, but we as a whole group must advance and take things to another level, and more of us must must wake up and stop being lazy. In the future many things will change. Stay away from enemy groups, unless you want to study them like animals for your personal research lol

Attracting a good mate can take lots of time, even years. Do workings for this, keep your eyes open, try approaching people if they look okay and interesting to you, work on yourself and try to get rid of bad karma... Most important thing is to be patient and in a meantime fall in love with...

One really cool thing about Sorath is that he loves to teach, and you could try asking him in light trance or just when you are relaxed to teach you something or just to talk with you. However there are 0 needs for you to talk others about it, because most likely you will just end up in problems...

Gaining powerful siddhis is not impossible, how will you use them is nobody's else problem as long as you will not damage many people with them and make problems to the Gods. Everybody is different and nobody can tell you what to do with them. However, it's your own responsibility and you are...

Thanks ^^ Sure, go ahead :)

Jack if you are so obsessed with military just join and leave people here alone finally. Everybody can gain a severe trauma, even most trained people in military can end up with some sort of an emotional scar, want them to admit it or not. We aren't all bred here to go around and just kill...

Unblock your hip chakras, your sacral and base chakra. Heal them and clean them. Maybe try working on your minor chakras on the legs. Add some more light workouts to stimulate and to empower those parts and keep taking some walks. Releasing sexual energy through orgasm, after sex or masturbation...

Thanks. I'm using photoshop usually.

I see. Well, good luck with that. :) I understand the feel, I feel like everything is slowed down in my life. One problem after another, and I'm slow at fixing anything tbh, it takes a while. Retrogrades and Saturn can slow things down a lot..

Thanks :) Well I don't want to be annoying or somethings. You look like you need a lot of space lately.

Thank you guys. I actually think that it's great that Gentiles can look up to each other and find inspiration and motivation to grow even more. I hope that more artists here will post their art and advance even more in every way. Aside from meditations we have lots of things to do, it's not...

I can believe how big fuss is created over one member changing their avatar. This is nonsense. Get a life ffs. I see no reason why would Gods be offended by anime, or why would anybody react in this way. I see no reason how watching anime, being little bit more feminine or having their avatar...

Thanks ^^ Btw, never understood why some people see him as arrogant or something like that. He is not. He likes to teach people and can be strict sometimes a bit, but he is really nice and actually is playful often. I noticed his aura often orange and pink, he makes me really creative when...

Thank you guys.

From now on I will be posting some of my stuff here. I wanted to do something for Sorath now. Hope some of you guys will like it. I'm thinking about posting some sketches sometimes. I often lose my patience while trying to finish my paintings and drawings, often I just ruin it while coming...

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It's not supposed to be too complicated really. Just keep cleaning and try to stimulate it with some runes and mantras. Do what you can. You don't have to direct them really, they naturally want to move, just clean the pathway and chakras. When you are ready they will move further and your soul...

Often it's all in our head. You would be suprised by how many people who are often bullied and abused are actually okay with it deep inside, even more, part of them wants it. It might sound weird but often we attract those things to ourselves cause we believe that we somehow deserve it, we might...

In your whole body. Concentrate on that energy, try to feel it and tune in it. Maybe some weak and blocked chakra is blocking energy to be raised fully so vibrate some raum in it, try to make it stronger and clean that chakra near where you are feeling issues. You might feel some pain directly...

It happens, it's normal. Nobody is perfect but we have to do what we can to fix the situation. Thanks for advices, I'm actually starting to have similar ideas in my mind. I am using lots of herbs now to help me with my states, but I need something more. I also have scoliosis that is adding to...

Well it has to do with Saturn usually, but also fixed stars can affects us a lot, and bad transits. Don't forget enemy attacks. I think that actually most Zevism have a phase in life when they feel stuck. Sometimes it's just enemy attacks that can ruin a lot even for those who fixed their life...

Uruz rune is stimulating Pingala, Berkano is stimulating Ida. Maybe try something with energies of moon, venus too, program it to stimulate your Ida. Don't forget to clean that pathway.

Thank you guys ^^ Yes you can. There will be more. I was unsure about posting my art for some stupid reasons but I guess I will just start slowly doing it. Hvala :D Ništa bez rada haha

I drew Amon Ra. He's my main GD. Decided to share it after all. I see some flaws but if I start fixing it again most likely I will ruin it, so I will just stop here hahaha :)

When I feel shitty I just talk with 1-2 people at max, sometimes barely talk with anybody at all. I just don't feel like I can talk much. I have problems with depression and anxiety and for some reason they are always coming back, even when i think that I got rid of them. I lack confidence...

Aww thank you. We talk soon. I'm sorry :( It will be okay, I will work on those issues as well. Yeeees. Fuckkk. Do this, do that, do this, do that. Hurry. Hurry more :roll: Hard to sleep at night. What the fuk. How to find time and energy for this all. How to do this anything at all...

I think if I could have more confidence it would help me a lot right now. But I was fed too much with bullshit. Honestly my blood family is constanly filling me with it. Before few days my mom came in my house again ( I live alone but she often comes over a bit) and, almost the first thing she...

Well, I was not feeling talkative so I simply let my protonmail storage full. Naturally everybody who tried to e-mail me recieved the same. I didn't checked it in a while anyways. I just feel too tired and felt blocked to properly talk, kinda feel really bad. Got also close to someone. Maybe...

Thank you honey. Sorry for being silent lately, I don't have much energy for talking and to do anything anymore, I was busy a lot and it seems that one bad thing is happening after another, but it will be easier once I heal some stuff, I'm sure of it.

I'm looking for some nice new ideas what I can give the Gods in return (not only this time) and I kinda want to give them someting even more they asked me for, like a gift. But okay, I will manage. I mean I understand what you wanna say. Just wanna give something like a gift too + what they are...

So I need a help with healing some nasty traumas. I will do summon one of the Gods and will talk with Satan too about my problems. Gods were helping me with some stuff before too, so it's not the first time I recieved their help. Honestly, they are really humble. They are not asking much in...

That's cool. You know what, people with some planets in air that have some prominent positions can have some gifts like that. I noticed that air can give you an ability to read future, sometimes even to see in the past. Practice void, practice astral senses and feeling the energy. Try to feel...

Yes, it is.

Ofc lol, I know how many times when a deep soul cleaning started everything for a short time would go to shit. I would watch whole area of my life or few of them going through something, and my mind would become weird too for a while. Soul is changing, your life is changing, your dirt and your...

In my opinion he is not mentally ill, at least is nothing severe, maybe he is going through something temporary. I personally think he's fine, just shit happens. Everyone who I talked with had something edgy to share, sooner or later people when open up weird shit start coming from them and not...

You lack grounding, pay attention more to healing your base chakra, add more earth element into your soul and do more void. Keep cleaning your 6. chakra. Everytime you feel weird pay attention to cleaning 6. chakra and also stabilize your 1. chakra. Just pull the dirt outside of your soul and...

Lately i am finding myself in a similar situation. I am trying to change. Like..everything almost hahaha Lot of things I have to start and have started that will last for months, years or even decades. Yeah, I'm in that phase where I am just starting some big stuff. If nothing I am proud at...

People sometimes tend to make some wishes to change and to move in certain direction and it can be a sign that they can and even should change. In your natal chart is also written on what you will and on what you will try to work on. Often earth dominant people tend to be shy and have hard time...

Thank you Aldrick...

I guess you are one of those people who just come around randomly assuming they know everybody completely based on one or two of their posts. I have my own reasons, people have their own reasons for talking some things, you don't know me and most likely you don't know anybody else around here...

Hmmm not really, the issue is how I have similar problems over and over again so I started thinking should I change something. I have no reason to leave because of one mistake dude, it's just how somethings is not okay. Well, I will take a break to figure out some stuff and to clean my karma. It...

I will try to be positive again, tho I kinda needed this all to realize some of my problems. I'm feeling better already, I will change some things so it should be fine. I will take it easy now and slowly I should fix some things. When I feel that I can open up again and be social more again I...

Okay Eric, I will listen to you then. I just listen to my main GD usually not gonna lie, I tend to be really stubborn, so this is weird. I like something about you. I could listen to you for hours almost. I think you are right about some things, I will see what I can do... Thank you for your...

I was harsh because I just wanted you to stop quitting the meditations. It's simple. I can't stand your pain all the time, I'm really sensitive when I get close to somebody, i want them to at least keep trying, not to give up all the time. I want my gifts to be taken away from me because for a...

*And yes I make mistakes* Bahahaha yeah

That is interesting what you mentioned. Before few days I started thinking I might have some issues with nihilism because I was hanging out with some similar people, I'm afraid it done something to me. I'm finding all that idea about nihilism absurd, but for some reason it seems my emotions and...

I am somewhat more sensitive but I am not that good at all and no yes I make mistakes, everybody does. But I don't think this is my mistake now, not this one. All good, I will not put anyone into danger. I can just ruin myself now :) You can be happy now, I'm done. At least for a while

This is not because of just this stupid thing. It's just how things are. Some people should be alone and mind their own business. I don't belong here, I never will. I got too relaxed among people, that's never good. Maybe when I clean some dirt and heal I will be able to relax again, idk. Trust...

The problem is how I always somehow have crazy issues when I'm trying to be part of something and I'm in a process of a cleaning something at the moment so it hit me hard. I'm super moody right now, I just want this dirt to go away from my aura. So far most nastiest shit is trying to leave my...

I will never say a word again. I think my acc should be removed.

I have walked all my life alone pretty much. I was trying to have friends and something more, constantly failing over and over again. I always was thinking - this is the day when I will give up. Lies. I would get up and keep walking. Getting ruined again and again... I'm not even sure why I'm...

Sorry for making a fuss. I will restrain myself from giving advices then. My apologies. I have studied it all and still I am and never had anything bad happening to me. I don't know why others are telling us to use black color and similar, but fine.

So you have a choice.. To be attacked by the enemy anyways ( you just have no idea what is happening most of the time) and to have your weak dying body being filled with toxins and heavy enemy curses every damn day until you die. To suffer and to live without any special purpose at all and to...

Well yeah, as Gerecht Ror said already is hard and even dangerous to be close to the normies, and there are even some dedicated Satanist who can put tons of dirt in you and can make your progress impossible or even dangerous. You can recieve really nasty thoughts and emotions often and even...

Kundalini might fix some things, but not everything. It changed my body in a way, since my kundalini is also awakened. Things happened. It does have some sort of "healing power" but you gotta also work your ass off to fix it all. Cleaning and healing might only help you, then you could put your...

I am trying to do draw some sigils and I think it's most important to focus on Demons energy, then to try to get some pictures in the head if possible how would it look like and then try to copy that on paper/photoshop or whatever. Keep it simple. Try to feel the energy of her from the sigil...

Nah. You can put it to sleep and you can heal dude. Do a working to heal yourself. Trust me. You can heal. I am not prone to feed somebody's delusions, and I don't like to lie. You can fix yourself, 100% sure of it.

Well, you see, we use our energy to fix our things and to transform, basically, kundalini and sexual energy can give you a lot of energy which will let you to easier manipulate reality around you but to also heal yourself easier or to fix some issues. When kundalini awakens and when you manage...

You are welcome. Also what might help is to add more physical exercise, try to relase that tension. You can do hatha yoga or try to workout a bit, maybe go on a short walk when you feel nervous or irritated. Your body will love workouts a lot as it's transforming and will need to be strong to...

Most likely. When chakras get empowered and when you work on them lot of weird things can happen. Tons and tons of deeply burried emotions start coming out in some way. Even when simply stimulating nervous system with some light meditations sometimes you can feel..well..odd. If you had a habit...

Fear is creating you blockages in chakras and in nadis, and can become real intensive paranoia and can lead to traumas and to crazy feelings, behaviour and trapped energy issues that can hurt as fuck. First you need to relax. If something feels really utterly wrong to you and is producing you...

There is not such a thing as safety. That thing doesn't really exist, it's only up to you how will you deal with life. Danger is everywhere, you can't escape it fully. When opening up to the astral you will also open up to the enemy, not just to the Gods. You will see and experience it all and...

Tbh, main thing that is on my mind is that we are not his parents, so let him be a bit. He is actually an adult, he is young still but mature enough I to use his brain in my opinion ( I'm not saying he is the most mature but still he can). This all is normal, it's normal life experience and...

It's so nice to see when someone is growing and maturing here, to see someone who understands more. With meditations we really can open our minds more, to expand our consciousness and to see what most people can't see. We can surpass ourselves we can escape and see beyond the border of our mind...

There are placements in somebody's chart that are forming those gifts and talents. Why wouldn't you have some of them? Most likely this is both talent and meditations slowly opening you up more. Looks like you lack confidence, I think you could open up even more soon if you start practicing more.

Natural selection.

Np :) Maybe bad planetary transits, enemy attacks, or just cleaning of some really deep dirt in you that could cause it. It will be fine. I'm glad at least one of your problems is gone now

When my Demon lovers come to me I feel really beautiful after, there is nothing bad happening at all. My vibration raises, I get cleaner and happier, I feel intense positive emotions. Every day is better and better and I'm advancing because of it a lot. I talked with Satan about it all and asked...

When Corrupted Beings and enemy nordics attack me sometimes I hear that sound. Attack can feel pretty much physical, like they are trying to rip my soul out of my body and to suffocate me. Some energy just lands on me and is heavy, I can hear and feel it landing suddenly on me and on my bed...

Sounds like a soul dirt, how they keep humiliating themselves in front of others and ruining themselves. Enemy programs and related shit.... Most likely you opened your eyes more since last Rituals spamming, after some curses got weaker in us so it's hard not to see some things more. Maybe you...

I had same issues all my life. My main GD came once and fixed it mostly, he just cleaned some dirt and traumas from my main chakras as I was struggling with it too much. In maybe 2-3 weeks after his visit I noticed my allergy has stopped competely. I was shocked, I did noticed some lightness in...

Some people have those experiences more than others. I actually didn't had that many as some other people but for sure they were weird. Since I was a kid I had a feel that someone is watching me and trying to hurt me, those were first experiences from the astral. I figured out it's the enemy...

Well pay attention to your soul. Maybe it's just a basic dream but maybe it's not. I mean, if it's not it would mean your serpent is full of dirt maybe, as it's black. You carried it on the head... maybe you might try to raise serpent fully to the crown chakra that will bring you some issues...

A bit. Nauthiz rune might be perfect if you are struggling to stop smoking. Some other addictions might need some extra work. Idk some people become super depressed while trying to stop smoking, it's almost scary but that rune is really nice if you know how to use it, it should help a lot. Good...

I agree with Jack, by focusing on fears they can easily become real as energy will work towards fullfiling what's on our mind. Being cautious is one thing, being ridden by fears until you are doomed is another thing. As long one is healing traumas, cleaning soul and keeping his/her eyes open...

What addiction? Nauthiz rune will help you too if you are having some crisis.

I barely ever posted before, I used to do other things, didn't wanted to talk at all here, I would sometimes check what's going on and that's it. Sometimes I don't have time for anything for weeks but hey, I found out if I can find some time to actually go and check instagram or whatever I can...

I think I had something similar as you had, not sure tho but, all I know it all started happening. No one is sure what is going on with me really, no matter how much I'm trying to find out what is really going on with me I can't figure some things out, but I did felt it raising a bit, so I guess...

Yes! I don't think this is supposed to be a science x) Just focus on what your body wants to tell you, but be honest with yourself. Follow how your body reacts to some foods and drinks eventually, your body knows what is bad and what is not. I used to listen to others and it just got me...

Also Munka is good if you feel that you are in some way linked to the enemy as bad emotions and dirt might tie you in some nasty enemy bullshit. Satanama too will stop some of those energies and curses that belong to the enemy from affecting you, you can also cut off harmful ties to the enemy or...

Void is easier with every day you keep trying. Doesn't matter even if you failed few days but even trying counts a lot. Then add few mins there and there, and then maybe add 20-30 mins . Later you can tune in and out, you can control your emotions and thoughts, you will be able to sense things...

Why do I have a feel you are having something that is blocking you. Like a hang- up, some fears, frustration. I will say this to you right now, you don't have to be a perfect Zevism, you don't need to compete, to look at the others all the time or to always seek for their approval. You don't...

Larissa feels just fine, a gentile in my opinion, she feels really nice and warm, and i see no problems with her. I think we are little bit all paranoid now lol. Some people just love to ask things, they feel talkative...

I'm telling people now that they must pay attention more also on how they clean themselves. If they don't feel lighter and more positive after the cleaning, they should try to clean more. Void makes it easier to stay clean during the day in so many cases, there is so much that pollutes the mind...

Yeah, we should be positive and fight, we survived so much. Older souls know that, this is nothing compared to then, we are winning this war, it can be seen everywhere. We made it !

Haha, np, I felt like someone will need to hear this ^^ Yeah, trust me, even older members sometimes can have struggles. I know some people that started believing they are mentally ill and destroyed themselves, for no reason whatsoever. It really takes just some healing, some void and to stay...

:) Yeah, it's true, I tend to pick up a lot from others, lately even more but it's something that void and cleaning usually can fix. Add some ether in the game if you struggle with this too much and stay away from getting too close with the normies. Often when being close to them, they keep...

So far, it all proved to be a truth for me since I joined. Make sure you study all well and stay open minded. Also don't expect too much in the beggining, try to focus more on your own wellbeing and staying consistent in your meditations, Gods and magic will become a normal daily thing for you...

It's crazy how big attack I personally recieved already before this started. I felt something, and started being afraid, enemy used it and now some things went to shit. It's not easy to gain control over your mind just like that, you will fail a lot in the beggining but later you become stronger...

Thank you Shael. I agree, enemy will try to stop us... I never felt them attacking so much, better attack back harder than ever. I remember when I dedicated there were no rituals at all. People had no idea what to do, they were lost and confused, it was hard to advance. I remember how much I...

Here we are today.. proud warriors of hell fighting for our freedom and for our salvation, fighting to make things right again. Today is heavy feel in the air, hard to breathe, hard to think. Fear destroying weak souls, opening them to the nastiest shit ever that belongs to the enemy. Lot of...

I saw them few times. If allowed I will later post my paintings of them. They look creepy tbh, they have darker skin, I think usually dark gray. Now, not sure why, but their eyes have some red glow, at least those I saw. Maybe beneath of that glowing energy are eyes of a different colors, I have...

I also have Mercury retrograde. People telling me I'm retarded all my life. Had trouble in school with some things. Problems with talking and communication. One of biggest issue about me is this retrograde, caused me nasty hang-ups and it's hard to do anything properly with it. It's hard to...

You are welcome. Do your best from now on and try to be more determined. Sometimes it's okay to slow down a bit but try to do your meditations still. Sometimes change them so you have better results from it. Privacy problems are pain in the ass. Try more silent meditations with visualisation...

With cleaning of the soul and healing the traumas your mental barriers will go down and you will start thinking in completely another way. Your IQ will increase with cleaning and meditations. If you do it all correctly soon you will notice changes. Often people lack concentration too so practice...

How about you find something that motivates you. Like, meditate and think about yourself and your spirit. Who are you? Where your power lies? What motivates you in life and why are you here? I also had one period when I was teen where I stopped my meditations. I tried them young but I was...

Among us all here sometimes I feel like just 10-20% are actually trying to advance and fix anything. Others are just doing whatever ... giving up and getting carried away in random bullshit over and over again.. I thought we are worshipping our Gods,not our personal hang ups. Ought we put it...

You are fine, just enemy messing with you a lot and paranoia killing you. Just don't think much about it and don't feel so bad for every little thing you do wrong. Make meditations your habit and Rituals too, but if you fail to do Ritual for a day or two try later to do more. If you feel like a...

Yes hahahahahaha. Right side of the body is left side of the brain and left side is actually right side. Gah x) And yeah one Demon appeared to me and said that elecetricity is also fire. They started explaining me some things sometimes and I swear lately I just wanna sleep. Why is sleep such a...

Pingala is the left side, Ida is the right side. Sorry, I was tired again. I'm also trying to correct my sleep. It's not that easy. Everything affects this apparently.

What often happens is that you aren't stimulating your body and brain over the day most likely but also food can affect this. Add more workout or go to a walk sometimes, have some fun during the day and eat something that is calming you down. Some herbs might also help you to relax, you can try...

The best is to learn from your own experiences and to think about it all. Feel the energy and what is happening around you and in you. There are some nice things you can find on the internet but be careful about those all informations.

Sigh. It's hard but it's often part of a cleaning. Clean your aura often too when you start feeling weird. Stay strong, it should be fine... Yeah, it's not pleasant at all sometimes

First off, you sound like you have 0 respect towards this person that you are trying to "help". Most likely you are trying to do this only so you can feel better about yourself in the end since I have a feel you are totally insensitive and most likely an air person, tho that is not my problem, I...

This sounds nice ^^ We should all cool down a bit I think huh

Lol, *all of my art is dark and sad*. Anyways, I don't want to really hate anybody here. I am sorry if I hurt people too much here, I want them the best actually. And often we don't even understand each other properly it seems anyways

Basically my point is not to be too insensitive. It's okay to have opinion and all just don't be too big idiot all the time. We all can feel fragile sometimes, but also we all must try not to be. Act like a human being, not as an ape on steroids. Before week or two I would cry for a single...

I seriously hate when we fight. I said already you can hate me and my art, I just don't want us to be too mean to each other, but okay. I know almost all of my dark is filled with sad energy and that, because I was sad most of the time. Feel free to say what you want, I just want us to not...

Thanks... **blushes*** I guess they do .. :shock: :D

I don't want to attack you. I attacked you back then because I had a feel you are attacking me. I am not sensing energies all the time. People should have their privacy here sometimes xD I'm trying not to feel most of the time actually. Anyways, if I hurt you somehow I am sorry. Btw if you...

Thank you very much. You made me really happy and emotional..again x) I am trying always to work on myself and on my talents. I have some weird fire that keeps pushing me to work more than others so I'm trying to draw and paint at least when I feel it too much in me. My fire is being pushed...

Here I will nicely put how things are now. I don't seek for any more help or advices as I already recieved too many, it's on me now to apply those successfully and to fix my things. I don't want to talk about my self-destructive tendencies, as it's pointless. All those who are trying to help...

I seriously don't understand how majority of the people are just picking my negative stuff, even you and no matter what I do it keeps being like this. I felt little bit better and more confident to share one piece of artwork, and I was so shy that I actually planned to not even say that it was...

I'm starting to think you really should be ignored all the time

Competitive spirit is good as long as we know how to handle it. I think it's a gift, tho sometimes it can invoke us a wrath of jealousy and make us unbearadle to others. It can make our fire to burn us from the inside so to say. My point is- some hang ups here are really dangerous to...

Wunjo is good to heal such a trauma. Sun energies can banish depression very well, try Sowilo or Surya at least when you are feeling really down. Moon energies will repair your emotions if you feel like something is not okay with them. Maybe try to focus on Earth's energy. You can focus on...

Are you Rooks friend? Lol No, it's a sword. If you want to insult me try better, but I am good at that myself anyways. :) Have a nice day xP

Np :) Also ofc pay more attention on your sushumna and even heart chakra extenions. Good luck comrade..

I just want some advices on which runes could help me, and I will not stop seeking for help and advices since I am not good at those things yet. Meaning, if I feel like crying, I will cry as much as I want to. I was using energy drawing and visualisation for my meditations all those years. Now...

Most likely you will barely have time for meditations and yoga. You will have some time before going to bed and on weekends. And if you can use some small pauses during the day, but that will be harder. You can do some stuff ofc. Not impossible but it will be hard. Military will crush the weak...

I was retarded idiot as usual and didn't wanted to master void properly. I was afraid that it will ruin my artistic abilities if I void all day. I was an idiot. I realized it. I am trying to correct it. I had visons, tons of them in my mind usuallyy ( sometimes even future prophecies) and I was...

Ritual's are here to help us with cleaning of our souls and even if they stimulate our chakras more or our serpents, they will just help us. I think you are in beginning phase still. Build no expectations with this all tho, but it can last few years to trigger something like this. With it will...

Apparently literally everybody can notice that I have a problem with this and I do. Tho reason why I said I am my own enemy was for another reasons but okay ( because we are to blame for most of the bad things that happen to us blah blah...) I must start a working to fix my issue. I must pick...

All okay, I will be better. Sorry for not being talkative lately... Thank you for being nice to me, yeah, we are here to support each other I believe. Amon helped me again yesterday, so today I am feeling decent. Hopefully there is not much left to clean, I am really tired of this all. I hate...

I barely even knew I had hang-ups before, and when this started it all became clear. I noticed some dirt but I didn't thought it will all end up being so nasty. Sorry for taking your time again and thanks for the reply, hopefully I will be better soon. I know who my guardians are and they are...

Sometimes I just don't know what to do when I feel so bad so I start thinking about giving up and going to a mental hospital. Stopping meditations usually is a wrong answer, but yeah, lot of people stopped instead of fixing things. Sometimes it was good tho, as some people were more prepared...

Ooppps, just realized this, I was picking very bad and incorrect words I believe in my post. People usually don't see the difference and doesn't know what even sexual energy is so I started saying that it's Kundalini lately, because I just went with the flow. Idk why but..lot of people even from...

Is there any way of me talking sometimes with you on protonmail? And I will need some of your services to see will this madness continue next year as well. I will not bother you too much, I just have few questions that I probably shouldn't be posting here. I am in really bad shape lately, so I...

So basically I am severely mentally ill now for no reason whatsoever then if you are saying the truth... I will soon be 22 yo. If I am this much mentally ill and this is not kundalini transformation, what can I do to heal my illness? I don't think I have any rights to be here if I am ill, but...

I want to thank everyone who gave me support and advices before, and my special thanks to you Lydia. I listened to your advice about Wunjo and started a working before few days. I think I can think straight again sometimes, and working is getting stronger every day. I added something weird in...

Not sure how to even be around others now as I feel really weird, barely can think straight, panicking a lot when that all hits me, and sometimes even when I am calm I can get paranoid suddenly. My mind started being delusional a lot and making out things, and making my problems seem bigger than...

Going insane Well, this is embarrassing but, yeah I kinda got mentally ill. They told me how important is to be clean and all before triggering Kundalini transformation, but due to my immaturity, obvious retardation, and sudden progress that I somehow made, I got unstable and lost my shit. For...

Tbh, not really self-sabortage is my intention. I wanna grow, I wanna grow powerful as fuck and I wanna be happy. I just know that barely even enemy out here can damage us as we can. We are responsible for our own actions, and we are first to blame. Not even Corrupted Beings or Greys or other...

You always manage to confuse me. I hardly can understand what you want really to say or what are your true intentions. Idk why but I'm 90% sure that you are following me around and insulting me all this time. No idea what you really want even now. You tried improving your communication skills or...

Yeah, I have abnormally morbid, dark and violent part of personality. It's can be a powerful drive to move forward and to take the best out of everything. If this part of me is not satisfied, it seems that nasty things happen. Also, I think I can remember some of traumatic events from my past...

Thanks. I'm adding new workings to clean my soul. Big part of my dirt is from my past lives actually, so I will have to remove it somehow. It's always pissing me off and I feel frustrated even when everything is okay and add some of my problems now and this happens I guess. Also I noticed some...

Why are people suicidal anyway? I am suicidal since forever, I barely was a kid and I wanted to die. I always had visions of me getting killed or similar, I always had a strong urge to die. I'm also very depressed person all my life and I had a lot of trouble with other people and my own...

Tbh, probably you are right. I think this here is mostly lying or exaggerations, because true and loyal Zevism would never have similar problems. Just cleaning for a few months can prevent similar things from happening anyway. Basically, this person is getting laid with the enemy for years, and...

You remind me of one of those really creepy guys around here who would just follow me and smile. Sometimes they even say something stupid ... aandd.. then they decide to disappear..

Fair enough. Valid points. Thanks for your honesty. Truth will come sooner or later to the surface. Maybe I am delusional completely, maybe not, thought it seems to me that I'm lately starting to be really open, tho..who knows. I might burn myself with it, but I will make sure that I don't burn...

Most of the Satan's Demon blocks me when they don't want me to speak. Usually I never do this, so I think you people need to understand that I have no intention to speak for her. I just said one thing, thing he already knows it seems. Btw, real guardians barely ever are allowing such sort of a...

Sorry to hear that. It sounded to me like one the nasty thoughtform problems. I never was raped by the enemy entity, maybe because I can notice them near me usually. Try to keep your soul as clean as possible, and don't let that being to attach to you anymore. Never wanted to do you any harm...

Thanks for your advices. I understand what you want to say...I'm trying my best to fix my issues. I'm learning to be confident and yet to not harm everyone around me, which is hard for me, because I either keep my confidence and strenght and hurt everybody around, or I become really shy...

What is the meaning of this? Enlighten me.

Then we talk there :) I think that you are a nice soul and I can see that you had some crazy shit in your life. Probably you noticed much before her in your life but you were unsure about what is happening. I can often see things and hear sometimes by just focusing on the energy, and I sensed...

Look, the being is not really alive. This is your thoughtform that you maybe empowered for a lifetimes. You have probably some problems with a Neptune too (rules subc.), because it's connected to it, to your crown chakra, to your chakras above your head and aura around. You are so attached to it...

Thanks, I'm trying my best here ^^ I'm good right now, thanks to my Guardians. Hopefully nothing will go wrong again. I had worst time of my life, now Sorath decided to train my mind and to clean me from some things, so I never fall so low again. This transformation can be good if you are...

You actually gave me some ideas for my new AoP. I never expected to find my solution easily but, I think I will try that with Aether( I have high hopes for this) and I will try to program myself to stop picking everything so easily. I don't want to fuck this up, so that I end up in even more...

I'm getting better slowly it seems :) My Guardians cleaned me in a hugeee working before 2 days, I guess they also got fed up with my situation. Now I feel saner than ever, just still must make some special protective layers on my aura. From your energy I can sense that we are similar in some...

Something similar to Ida and Pingala unison happened to me before few months. It felt like cold calm energy and raw hot energy united in my brain and after it, few weeks my consciousness barely was holding onto my physical body and I started feeling everything but not ordinary things... My...

Probably their energy is cleaning your dirt and blockages. I had similar thing for years, and after I cleaned some stubborn dirt from my chakras, that weird feel started ceasing. Now I feel normal when I feel their energy. Focus on cleaning yourself more and it will be fine.

Stimulate your brain and mind with something positive for you. Like after doing it all, reward yourself with something nice, so your brain will start connecting meditations with something good. Also, try to listen to some nice music while doing some meditations, and try to relax as much as...

When trying to communicate with Demons try to get in touch with their energy as much as you can. Meditate on their sigils, try to feel their energy, the more, the better. In time, while focused on their energy you will notice more things, more sings from them, guidance, appearance and in the end...

You can try to burn your room with Satanic flames when you feel those things or try to strengthen your protection. When I feel attacked I always burn my room a little bit just in case :) Sometimes if enemy is really there I can feel and see little fuckers burning around in panic ^^ If that...

Thanks... Well ofc, you need energy for every working. Magic is also about creativity.

Wunjo is really good for this. Gebo is not bad either but it's somehow more serious so to say, for more serious workings . You can also use Ehwaz, you will gain some control with it. Othal is kinda strengthening the bonds, like it can engrave them even in history somehow. Algiz will protect...

I'M CRYING x'D I can't stop hahhahahahhaahha xDDDD

That's the one of the right ways to do it, I approve this. There is a specific feel of a transfering message in the mind of the others. I'm trying to keep that feel almost all the time and for that is needed a lot of concentration. When I'm condensing it into a ball for a instance im trying to...

It's possible and I'm practicing it lately. But the truth is I really don't know how to explain the process. You have to have strong visualisation and skill in directing the energy+ really really good concentration. Actually, you can send video messages and 3d,4d all six senses messages in...

Hahahahah sigh.. I remember when I was like you and I was chasing normies around and playing some saint or whatever. Everytime I ended up in a big trouble in the end and they also had a rough time because of the enemy. Enemy will turn everyone against you or chase them away. As I already said...

Thank you very much :D

I do yoga and workout regulary. The binding is getting weaker everyday, that's for sure. I'm cleaning myself dialy. All of my chakras are opened and strong. My Guardians are really nice and they do work with me usually, but I was a fool and had a hard time realising some things, but they were...

Don't worry, I have guidance. My main GD told me I need to raise my sexual energy and that I need to change my meditation program few days ago. I was unsure can I really do It but he was persistent. Now I know that he wants me to do it because I was letting it roam around sometimes, and in the...

I want to remove enemy binding which is preventing most of my sexual and kundalini energy trapped. Lot of that energy is pooling in my legs which is very dangerous. The binding is getting weaker each day but not fast enough. Im in a very bad situation, I have to remove the binding before this...

It's little bit complicated to explain but you are a life saver. I understand it all now. Thank you very much! This kundalini energy was always very active in me and I didn't realised it up until now. When you let something that powerful roam around you carelessly it truly can destroy you. My...

Hey, thanks.I almost forgot about this being written but it's ok, it's logical somehow. Normies are weird as fuck. Hard to even watch them as sane beings, they are way to programmed, simple slaves. Satan came on His own before few weeks and said something about me being powerful and skilled. I...

Something happened to me and suddenly my energy changed drastically. I woke up yesterday feeling really weird, like I'm not being myself at all. In one night my personality changed more than it has in years, maybe in my whole life. I felt united, like my ida and pingala had united somehow and I...

You can try to summon him ...but..,from my experience he likes to play very cold in the beggining so to say. I mean, he probably will stay hidden until you prove to him and to yourself that you are loyal and serious. He will check on you regulary and in time he will start working with you more...

On my phone I can see something weird. Under the #C and #D , letters are different -smaller, way too small...

This works for me. For the best results you should have strong chakras and good feel and visualisation. In a few days results usually follow. I use this to incite love and lust in the same time, but it can be modified ofc. Go in meditative state or trance. Visualise who you want in front of...

hahahahah sorry for mistake, I was so tired while I was writing this. *My guardian then slowly started working with me again* x'D Hahaha It seems like you are one very nice person ^^ You have beautiful energy. Keep up the good work.

Don't give up. Keep trying, I'm sure it will be okay. You body and your soul will soon cry for some more meditation. And don't be obsessed about power, better first heal, power will come gradually later. Sometimes it's hard to grow, but don't give up and the results will come.

After I advanced and opened myself more again few days ago I got shocked soo much.. And I learned a lot about myself but because of some fears I had, I was unable to accept it and I was confused as fuck and even got sick (haven't been sick in years o.O ). My guardian told me that I have to...

I already know my guardian. Just Mulciber wanted to talk to me. Everything is fine now, thank you. It was little bit confusing at the beginning, but it turned out just fine. We were close before so he wanted to talk again with me Hail Satan Hail Marduk

I think he is trying to contact me. Does anybody know him? Any information would help me a lot. How does his energy feels, color of his voice, appearance, behavior? I don't want to talk or have anything with some enemy entity so please help me Hail Satan

Look, I'm sorry if I offended you. I'm actually here for years and years and I have studied everything. I understand a lot of things , it's just that I love this family soo much and that I am worried that lot of people are confused. Lot of them have many questions especially when they are new...