Lucifer comes from the latin word "Lucem Ferre" or "Light Carrier". It also has other meaning such as Venus or Morning Star. Lucifer is another name for Satan: http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... Satan.html
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There's no need to meet any Zevism. Just keep it on the down low about being a Satanist and continue advancing yourself. Start doing warfare and leave truth tracts in your area to spread the truth about Satan and the Gods.
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Yes whatever skill or talent you have remains within the soul. Just as with personality traits and yes spiritual abilities.
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Having a demon lover can last for many life times so yea basically it's permanent. But if you wish to have a short term relationship with a demon then talk to father about this.
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What kind of obbsession are we talking about here? If you mean that your just very attached to father and constantly meditating and doing rituals for him then this is a good thing and it could mean that you just have a good relationship with him. Keep a strong bond with him and continue...
You have to remain calm and relaxed as much as possible. Start by focusing on a body part, your fingers for example, pay attention to the feel of your fingers and focus on moving it. Then move on to your arm and do the same. You will eventually get out of the paralysis state. This works for me...
Continue to practice void meditation until your thoughts are strong enough to lock your focus on wherever you intend to focus. Your thoughts aren't completely silent if your still having trouble with that.
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